Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi, I’ve been feeling very strong nostalgia for lockdown the past days- I miss the quiet, the peace, the empty streets, being able to work from home, not having to socialise in person except for possibly going on a walk with someone, it being acceptable to mainly socialise online, time moving more slowly, being able to live life at my rhythm ... - does anyone else feel this way? I am very burnt out and overwhelmed at the moment which I think is making me crave for a pause more than ever. Someone said to me recently that life does not have a pause button but that we crave that sometimes - which is exactly how I feel right now- I want life to pause, to forget about all the deadlines I have to meet, to just be able to exist with no pressure in my own bubble- I think lockdown was the closest I ever experienced to life being on pause.
I hope I am not being insensitive here- the pandemic caused a lot of misery and the reasons that led to lockdown being necessary are bad - I just miss aspects of what life was like during lockdown and am in urgent need of a pause that I am not going to get.
Maybe you felt comfortable in lockdown because it brought everyone else down to your level.i.e Everybody was suddenly faced with the same restrictions as a Person with ASD. ( Withdrawn etc )I said to my Mum at the time that " Lock-down " was normal for me, it just let the rest of the country know what it feels like.
Hi - I understand what you mean though I personally don’t see being withdrawn and needing alone time etc. as restrictions. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to not be autistic ie would it be easier? The world is not designed for people like us. But I want to feel positive about being autistic and I like a lot of my autistic traits :)
Autism is a special club. Who the heck wants to be " normal " ? Blah..