does anyone else sometimes doubt they're autistic?

not holding a grudge is autistic

and feeling like you are more confortable with autistic than with non-autistic is one of indicators of being autistic too

so your new mission - find out what do you fancy/what you're good at, and embark on a great journey of enjoying it

My Special Interest is Thinking, it does not have to be something material

I did many versions of AQ 50, and I consistently score 42

I feel like I can hold a grudge sometimes but it depends what it is, if it's something small I won't hold a grudge 

or is it just being wary of a person that caused you doubt seriously what are their true intentions?

or is it just being wary of a person that caused you doubt seriously what are their true intentions?

It was good talk

I enjoyed it, 

It's time for me to go to work

may your day be full of autistic joy

and on this planet, those days, autistic are being made villains, for doing exactly that

It will save you a lot of stress, to keep it to yourself and the person, and avoid public joining in

I faced such a dilemma month ago, I managed to avoid disclosing it to my manager and still get transfered, so I do not have to work with that person anymore

I planned to say the whole very long truth hoping he will interrrupt me before I get to the point where I would point fingers, so not a white lie

and I didn't play my ace in a sleeve which is phonecall to my previous manager

exactly xD it doesn't feel right to pretend to like and be their friend, if I don't like a person I won't hide it, and I would respect it if some people were the same with me if they don't like me, then I know where I stand with that person

When I call that person out for their awful behaviour, I'm called out for causing "drama" even though I'm just saying that what they said or did was awful 

it's not grudge, because you expressed your feelings, you do not have to suffer any indignities, he is a bully, you have full right to shun him,

just because that is the way for everyone doesn't mean it has to be for you too,

if they are ok with him disrespecting their boundaries it's their choice

plus : they excuse his behaviour, and they don't excuse yours, what would equality act say about it?

yeah, I told him to be nicer to people but then I started getting blamed for their behaviour, and some people excused the behaviour saying "it's just him, it's just his personality to be like that"

what got me is when some people who also questioned that person and called him out privately to me, yet still continued to talk to him and be nice, and I was told to just do the same and talk like we're friends 

forgot one more bit:

It wouldn't be grudge if you told the person why you changed behaviour towards them:

e.g. I am going to avoid you from now on and keep  conversations to minimum because I do not like the way you treat me or talk about me, and that you do not respect my boundaries (I dislike people trying to give you a hug a lot, so I tell it to them right away so they do not do it hopefully)

yeah, I definitely have held a grudge against someone then, but I never think about revenge anything they did just annoyed me for some reason 

I think the distinction is:

when you hold the grudge, you no longer treat them like everyone else ( you can conceal being wary and still treat them like others), so you wouldn't be always nice, snap at them every now and then, being grumpy towards them  etc

occassionaly you consider acting upon it, which is planning a revenge of sorts and not acting upon it

but I might be wrong, it's what I concluded from my observations of people and my own motivations and actions 

I didn't think of it that way, I do have trouble in doubting their true intentions, it's hard to trust someone again when they keep breaking your trust or hurting you, but I feel that's more a personal thing that's just how I am, but it's something I could probably work on