does anyone else sometimes doubt they're autistic?

I'm doubting I'm autistic because I don't have the stereotypical personality traits of autism, I'm quite talkative to people who I'm familiar with like I'm really shy when I first meet them, but I can do small talk about stuff I've heard and seen for today and what's gone on today etc. to someone who I'm comfortable with 

I'm not gifted nor am I good at maths and science, I wouldn't call myself intelligent, I have judged people before and I have not long ago, and I was proven wrong and I ended up liking the guy 

I'm not good at puzzles or riddles, it seems I don't fit in with autistic or none autistic people, feels kind of lonely or I'm just stupid 

I've also been on autism forums and sometimes I see "I hate when NT people do this" and sometimes I'm like "I do that though"

Parents
  • not holding a grudge is autistic

    and feeling like you are more confortable with autistic than with non-autistic is one of indicators of being autistic too

    so your new mission - find out what do you fancy/what you're good at, and embark on a great journey of enjoying it

    My Special Interest is Thinking, it does not have to be something material

    I did many versions of AQ 50, and I consistently score 42

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  • not holding a grudge is autistic

    and feeling like you are more confortable with autistic than with non-autistic is one of indicators of being autistic too

    so your new mission - find out what do you fancy/what you're good at, and embark on a great journey of enjoying it

    My Special Interest is Thinking, it does not have to be something material

    I did many versions of AQ 50, and I consistently score 42

Children
  • I feel like I can hold a grudge sometimes but it depends what it is, if it's something small I won't hold a grudge 

  • Interesting about grudges. I feel that grudges are so avoidable or at least repairable, so I get, and remain, very distressed if someone appears to have one but renders it unfixable by not recipcrocating the most tentative of diplomatic bridge-building. I don't think I've ever initiated a grudge, but I can get very hurt by the miscarriage of justice feeling that results from one being set in stone - permanent exile from that person's 'people I acknowledge' exist list, awful to bear when you like or even adore that person.