Published on 12, July, 2020
i've noticed that alcohol seems to be the thing which social occasions revolve around and it is expected of me that when i turn 18 i start drinking alcohol.
drinking even a sip of alcohol makes me feel sick
i have emetophobia which worsens this
i don't like the idea of losing control
however, i worry that this will get worse when i go to university with all the peer pressure to drink when i genuinely don't want to and i don't like the thought of it but i don't want to be seen as boring and well an outcast but i guess i always feel like an outcast.
my mum made mince pies and i happened to have the one with tons of alcohol in it and i feel sick right now.
alcohol always seems to be the source of entertainment generally.
i don't want to turn this into another rant but i just hate the way the world is
Hi :-),
I think my post will help you immensely.
I'm 45 and stopped drinking/smoking/trying drugs when I was 20 because it was causing my anxiety to reach horrendous levels. My friends at the time did try to convince me to try a little drink but I explained that I am allergic to it. It's more about other people being embarrassed that you'll remember how inebriated they were. I arranged to meet up with friends in other ways that suited me and went to the occasional night out if there was music involved so I could dance. I once lost my temper with someone who kept asking why I didn't drink so I told him it made me want to kill myself. I hoped that the discussion would end there but then he proceeded to tell me that he felt like that too but didn't have the guts to give it up. I made my excuses and left asap as it was all too much for me to deal with.
Rant away as it's better to get it out, besides, your buddies should be supportive of who you are and what you need support with. Health is more important and if they can't support you in that then I'd seek other friends who are understanding of you.
Best of luck and thanks for sharing.
H :-)
thank you!