Published on 12, July, 2020
i've noticed that alcohol seems to be the thing which social occasions revolve around and it is expected of me that when i turn 18 i start drinking alcohol.
drinking even a sip of alcohol makes me feel sick
i have emetophobia which worsens this
i don't like the idea of losing control
however, i worry that this will get worse when i go to university with all the peer pressure to drink when i genuinely don't want to and i don't like the thought of it but i don't want to be seen as boring and well an outcast but i guess i always feel like an outcast.
my mum made mince pies and i happened to have the one with tons of alcohol in it and i feel sick right now.
alcohol always seems to be the source of entertainment generally.
i don't want to turn this into another rant but i just hate the way the world is
Kind of seems normal for some on the spectrum not to like alcohol. Proydepends of what end of it your it on it or could just personal who knows. Not everyone enjoys it. He'll I wish I didn't have to depend on it as much as I do to help coach me through socialising. Count it as a blessing.