Published on 12, July, 2020
I came up with sth to help them imagine it:
Try to imagine being dropped from helicopter into a sea during storm, blindfolded, without knowing the height. Then you hit the water, and while being shocked from not fully anticipated contact, your first thought is ‘’I can’t swim’’. Nonetheless, you start fighting for your life, throwing your arms around without skill, yet staying on top somehow. Then, you think, you can hear a familiar voice shouting ‘’Swim, you have to’’.
Hit the water is the moment when you turn 18, and realise the enormity of the task ahead.
Blindfold represents inability to read people correctly.
‘’Swim, you have to’’ is ‘’Act normal’’, something I was told as a child more often than anything else.
Stranger in a strange land.
OR
Life is a movie I'm watching, but I'm not featured in it, not even a cameo.
Or
My body is a vessel, inside sits a driver, then there's me watching the driver controlling the vessel
I'm an alien robot, maybe from another dimension, sent to Earth to observe
HAHAHAHA
All of those! I often feel like I'm behind a glass screen, watching the action but never able to join in. And if someone catches sight of me, they stare blankly or run away in terror. It's like I'm talking a foreign language.