Published on 12, July, 2020
For me, loneliness varies widely.
I can be totally alone at home all day. Not speaking to anyone. Yet not feel lonely.
At other times I'm surrounded by people, all communicating, but I feel completely alone and very very lonely.
School was a loneliness nightmare. Children all around me. But I was totally alone year after year
Yesterday I felt almost ok. Heard a sad song on the radio and suddenly the loneliness hit me.
I know what you mean. I have to avoid listening to music sometimes because i can't cope with the emotions it creates. I suppose i don't mind being on my own as such but it's when people deliberately exclude you that it can be upsetting (such as school or work).
I listen to music BECAUSE of the emotion it creates. It helps at the end of the day. a self induced Cathartic experience -
"Catharsis (from Greek κάθαρσις katharsis meaning "purification" or "cleansing") is the purification and purgation of emotions—particularly pity and fear—through art or any extreme change in emotion that results in renewal and restoration.
Would you say you are quite an emotional sort of person?
I’ve met some lovely people here, thank you... and it helps a great deal!
Oh i see. That sounds really tiring. I can understand why music would be useful in that process. I hope you feel you can share all your emotions here with us.
I carry a lot of other peoples emotional and practical needs and wants so “compassion fatigue” and many years of not being heard mean a lot on internalising - the full gamet of emotions - joy not shared, happiness not shared, hurt not shared etc