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A tear in my eye, and I will remember your glue picture every time I'm beating myself up ftom now on. We can be glue, we can be strong with each others help, or at least less hopeless. 

You're priceless Lone.

()()()xxx

Hey friend,,,you will get there,,,we all will, we stick together like glue.

such kind words,they work both ways you know, 

you take care of yourself, ok.

x()x()x()x.

I care about you Lone, probably part of my DNA here because you appeared with Ellie, Misfit and I. Trying to fit in with my real life means I hide from here sometimes, I didn't realise how appropriate my name is when I chose it, I'm terrible for just disappearing and I don't mean to but when the stress levels get too high I vanish. 

Sad part of that is that I'm still trying to fit in with what I now know is impossible, just to survive, feel much more at home here.

Misfit nudged me in the direction of ADHD investigation and I too looked at screening documents. The results were all 'extremely likely' and I've found that harder to process than the ASD, maybe just because it's on top and autism is more than enough to get your head around. Sometimes feels like nothing is ever going to make sense.

I hope you will know what I mean when I say I don't think I'm saying what I meant to..

I really appreciate you being around and sharing your hard won experience, good and not so great. Can we live contentedly with our Nt families? My jury is out but I have mo children and am not married, so I guess it's different.

My Photoshop ambitions are to turn my paintings into fabric designs, which like everything else I do is apparently really complicated, I'll win though, just like you will. Wishing you very well Mr Warrior. (and my other friends ot there).

X ()x ()x ()x

Hi spotty thank you I am feeling ok, yes I have been down a bit lately, thank you for noticing and saying so, mainly pressure to perform at work, family is well,,,,ongoing shall we say, 

It is reassuring to see a friendly light in, And heart warming to hear you , I did a ADHD test recently and scored very high, I have realised that ADD and ADHD can be part of ASD, 

I am not suprised  I scored high, I rush about a lot, I find it difficult to stop once I get focused on something, I would keep working long after work hours if I was happy and it was all going well.

So photoshop once mastered it can be used to create amazing pictures, I hope you get in ok with it, it can be simple or complex depending how much you want to do with it. Or so I have heard, me? Not a clue.

keep working away you will get there, and if anyone reading this has knowledge of photoshop that may benefit spotty please feel free to give support. Thank you.

your art is amazing by the way.

If you don’t ask  don’t get, Lol.

Take care spotty,really nice to see you back even for a quick visit, I am always about here somewhere, 

x()x()x()x

The 'latest' button seems to work impeccably now, so I came straight here!  lt is a very disquieting thing, all that spam and makes me feel more autistic than ever.

Hope you are feeling a little better Lone as you've seemed down from what I've read. I'm beetling away behind the scenes to get my head around Photoshop, I'm haphazard because I think ADHD is in the mix, but I know I will only be able to stand my ground and drop the mask if I have at least a small income. At least Im working on it.

Happy Saturday. ()()()

Ah a thread not compelling all to watch sport, well it was a long way down here,sorry if you came here expecting something great, apologies, just a bit miffed with the spam filling the place up.

at least I hope you had some enjoyment reading all of the random posts as you worked your way down to here,

Many thanks, x()x()x()x

Ah... I am still here, Good Sir! I left off for a few minutes to try to find validation as I said, yet return here and you have spotted it also...!

No you are not... um, some of the things you mention. (!) I thought that it was my own "old" EReader giving Errors, yet "Missy" and I think "DongFeng" also mentioned it elswhere. It is down to luck and to Memory, noticing such things, and so NAS will not notice it until there is MUCH complaining, perhaps...?

If enough support is given, someone should begin a new Thread, something like "2018 Posts Disappearing at Random", and surely NAS cannot ignore *that*...  ???

I have experienced missing posts.  It is very annoying and some of my posts are bonkers 

And some of my posts are missing and then come back.  It is bonkers and autistic . Or is it schizophrenic?

Um... Good Evening to you Mr.Mathematical-Robert... 

The "complaints" about this trouble are spread out, and perhaps it is good to hear from someone who has not yet experienced it...? Yes I -we - mean *entire Posts going missing*, and then when accessing the same Thread, they may be back. If I can recall them, I shall Post Links to others upon other Threads who also mention this. Thank You for your Reply - yet it would be best for myself if others also Posted further validation after this Post...

When you say bonkers. 

Do you mean the content ?

Or

Posts missing ?

Or both ?

Good Fortune to all who may read. It is me again, upon a Tuesday (15+1, 01,2018)... But I write this Post in a swift haste...!

I HONESTLY did not see all of the "latest" Posts to this Thread until now - 19h (same day)! This Forum has, as I said elsewhere, gone absolutely bonkers (for some of us)... 

The last Post I saw was from Mr.Lone (concerning showering), and I was "tidying up" a lot of my other Threads before checking again upon this one. Is anyone from NAS listening, I wonder...? 

Definitely not Robert, please believe me.

Each of us has a purpose,You have helped others here including me,just listening to the things you recount can enrich lives.

I For one would miss you,you have allowed me to question many things which adds to my life.

As said the past is the past, I For one have much in the past which could have effected me negatively!

It actually made me a stronger and more understanding person.

Your past has shaped you into a thoughtful person who understands and can support others.

So I need you around ok.hang on in there.for me.().

 No, not the big sleep...I’d miss you too much x. What has happened in the past is in the past....you are you NOW and you are valued here 

Thanks for remembering me and mentioning me.

But. 

It's 5am and I have woken and I cannot sleep.   

I have done some bad things in my past and I cannot forgive myself.  I cannot sleep.  I cannot sleep.  I cannot sleep.  Perhaps I deserve the big sleep

Well as promised I am back,,,,I am still unrecognisable but the inner me is all present and very correct!

Thank you all for your kind comments, 

Ellie that story is so beuatiful,it says so much about my journey, I think it says a lot about each and every one of us.

You are truly a kind being.

I have yet to complete my journey,but I am real! 

I did shower,I didn’t want to, the whole story is true, Instead of Feeling angry I decided to just do it out of courtesy to my OH.

Now there lies the reason I am struggling!

I have suddenly been made aware of who I am. I have tried to show people the real me,I wasn’t welcomed,maybe the sudden demasking caught them off guard, I decided to climb back in my box to allow for an easier life,comments most here may have heard “well once you have seen the doctor you can get back to being normal” ouch that hurt.said by my boss.

”maybe you should stop researching all that stuff as it only upsets you”  or “why can’t you just stop doing all this and act like you always have” ouch.ouch My OH.

Bless her she even brought me a book”Been there,Done that,TRY THIS, by TonyAttwood.

she thought it might help me understand how to cope better and start being normal again! Double ouch.

So I don’t seem to be accepted, well it is there loss,

All I ask is for a chance to co exhist, not to dictate my thoughts, not to suddenly change everything about me,So ups and downs in mood for me,

I posted it here because at the time there were seven people I have been lucky t call my friends, we have walked this path pretty much together,we have listened,talked,cried and laughed, gave support when needed and understand each other so very well. It seemed right somehow. Not a ne thread that others may not understand.

So the journey continues, I don’t blame my OH for her concerns, suddenly I have changed, I only want a chance to be more myself, no big plans,just able to enjoy my kind of thing,ideally with her by my side, After many years of thinking my ideas are a bit strange or to different I cannot see that happening,both have different ideas or values concerning adventure. so All I ask is to be allowed to be myself now and again.

Big hugs to ,and thanks to,

Ellie

Missy.

disallowed C.

spotty.

BlueRay.

Martian Tom.

and 

Robert123.

NAS36011.

for just being you.

And everyone here who has helped me wether you knew it or not you all play a part of my life.

By the way DC we would look swell walking together as I have finally decided to wear what I want,a waist coat,and old style shoes or boots,short leg cotton trousers,a cravat or scarf ,old style clothes, imagine a time when steam engines were the rage, nothing flash but distinctive,

As a teenager I dressed as a biker,I liked feeling different,after all I was but didn’t understand why. I may decide to keep this beard I am growing Lol.

()()()()()()()()()()x

r-52.

v-738.

s-18.

15-01-2018.

00:21.

You are not fading away LoneWarrior...you are beginning to become real!

THE VELVETEEN RABBIT

"What is REAL?" asked the Rabbit one day, when they were lying side by
side near the nursery fender, before Nana came to tidy the room. "Does
it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?"

"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that
happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just
to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real."

"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit.

"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When
you are Real you don't mind being hurt."

"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit
by bit?"

"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It
takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who
break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept.
Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved
off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very
shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are
Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."

x take care

Hello !

Thought I would take you all on a little journey. Please don’t be worried about what it says!

it is merely something that highlights how “ fitting in” is like for me.Lol. Enjoy but don’t fret I am ok.

And so,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,here it is.

A bit random,,,,,but has anyone seen LoneWarrior?

I was with him a short while ago but he seems to have faded away! And I just cannot seem to find him?

I was with him just a few minutes before he took a shower! He for some reason unknown by many hadn’t bothered to shower since before Christmas?

He couldn’t apparently see why it was necessary? Or maybe he was trying to be himself?

He was repeatedly asked to do so and finally decided it was easier just to do it.

well it was just before he showered that he began to fade.

It was as he stood there I felt him start fading, I think bits of him went down the plug hole ?

then when he got suitably dressed in the clothes that were chosen for him he faded even more. The last time I felt him was when he sprayed loads of deodorant all over himself! 

I think I caught a glimpse of him as I walked past a mirror, It may not have been as I could see a beard that looked like his! He has been growing it since the start of Christmas. His first beard previously not grown as his OH wasn’t keen on them.

I couldn’t say it was him however as only the beard was recognisable,there was nothing behind it that looked quite right!

It looked more like “ LONE”

I will come back here later to see if he turns up.

I am sure he will.!

He is probably busy trying as usual to be what every one wants,well,,,,,,everyone out there.

And so,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,!

So as I said I am ok but just wanted to say how it is for him,well I think it is???

This isn’t new, I just understand it more now, 

For all of you who know “ ME” please don’t fret! I am really ok Lol.

take care and I WILL RETURN,,,,,!(promise)

()()()()()+()x

r-42.

v-610.

s-18.

14-01-2018.

13:12.

http://community.autism.org.uk/f/miscellaneous-and-chat/11407/nas-forum-what-do-i-do-if-i-am-on-this-forum-as-an-autistic-person-but-because-it-is-new-year-the-other-informal-no-specific-topic-threads-have-become-largely-forgotten

...This Link is Posted for three reasons: 1- That I said that I would do so here, upon that other Thread. 2- It sort of still applies. (e.g. I am not a Parent.) 3- ...in case anyone wants to Post here, and at the bottom/end (...), yet not link to the Pictures I Posted. This is just Text, here.  (Go back toTop and press "Reply", if anyone is new, here...)

If this shows up, this is sort of what the same first picture looks like yet without my spectacles on!

The picture of my mind changes, of course, but that is the base upon which now, um, keeps me alive... um... changing subject!!

WebPM, somewhere, said to keep the pictures under 1 MegaByte, and/or smaller than 800x800 Pixels, somewhere... and so I did that, but there was one other picture (or two) which I was going to Post yet could not Post. So it is still pretty up-in-the-air...

...and as I said before (I think), I posted some random pictures in attempt to revive this Thread... and but for your doing so anyway, I was going to leave off to avoid drowning in "children". Is it like this at this time every year, is what I wonder...