Feeling discombobulated

I think I get what you mean. I felt a strangeness when I received my ASD diagnosis, possibly because I couldn’t absorb the magnitude of the number of things that weren’t ’my fault’. 

Today I’ve been feeling disturbed at some of the affairs of the world.

Talking to people (other than my closest family) always leaves me feeling unsettled. And as you say - often I can’t pinpoint exactly what I might have done wrong (if anything) etc. I’m working on  learning to ‘let go’ of worrying thoughts like this. Dwelling on it doesn’t help me, or anyone else - so I just mental,y tell myself to STOP ruminating on it, and try not to care what other people think of me. Easier said than done of course. But it’s a work in progress. 

Its one of those words without a universal meaning, but if we read it as anxiety then yes, very much and several times a week. I feel guilt, or fear, often that deep strange self loathing, none of these having an obvious cause. I think sometimes a fleeting negative thought or image can trigger this then it disappears but the feelings remain. 

Im pretty sure too that its connected with trauma in my case, always expecting the worst, most dreadful outcomes. No one can talk me out of these thoughts, as in the past the worst possible outcome has happened too often. [removed by mod] but preferable is lengthy deep sleep which often re sets me. 

Post edit by mod please take care not to offer medical advice as per rule 6 Thanks