Published on 12, July, 2020
I have tinnitus since my childhood since I ever remember, but I was sure my whole life that it’s normal and everyone has it. It’s regular high pitch constant sound, quiet but often overwhelming. Additionally there is a low frequency irregular hum (does not follow my heartbeat). When I cover my ears, the hum disappears while the high pitch noise remains in my head. I hear the hum only indoors and only in silence like in the night. Recently I found out about tinnitus and heard a video with simulations of different types of it, I found the one that I have. So I’m concerned now, if what I hear (the hum) is electricity? Several years ago I had a hearing test and it showed I heard from 5Hz and the doctor mentioned something that it’s not normal, something about Hyperacusis and that I should go test myself etc I don’t remember exactly I was just happy that I hear good. I was concerned about my hearing because there were and of course still are situations that I don’t react when being called. When reading a book or anything else that swallows my attention. I also often ask “what?” When someone talks to me, but not because I don’t hear it’s because I can’t catch it all at once I need them to repeat so I can process it. My “Linux “ works slower. I’m wondering if I’m going crazy. Any thoughts or experiences will be appreciated.
My childhood was full of people syringing and poking about in my ears for exactly the same reason.
I for some reason need to allocate a LOT of processing power to my hearing, and if I'm using it on the task at hand I don't hear people.
On the other side when I need maximum processing power I.E. driving a car around a busy island I need to NOT be listening to conversation.
My last "meltdown" was at my daughter who simply woud NOT shut up whilst I was doing something culinary, (Culinary activity gives me more stress and difficulty than driving).
That’s why I escape the other members of my family. Whatever I’m doing - I do it silence. My husband’s soap opera on his phone, my daughter playing and talking all the time, her toys, other sounds from the background all that makes me crazy. I had meltdowns as a kid and adolescent but now as adult I get panic attacks. Didn’t have one for a while because started taking better care of myself- earplugs. It’s like I managed to avoid meltdowns, how to avoid the triggers and calm myself down, so my brain decided that it has to release the energy in other way.