Published on 12, July, 2020
Lights, sounds, smells, everything is extra intolerable lately. I cant seem to make myself do stuff, I cant make decisions. I feel tired and am getting headaches. Words are harder. I keep almost having meltdown/shutdowns (just today I felt like a meltdown every 30min). Im exhausted
I want it all to stop, I want to take a break from everything but I cant. I have homework, I have school, on friday we have an assembly which I always get overwhelmed at but im scared ill have a full on meltdown because I seem to not even be able to handle everyday stimuli so how could I survive a room with hundreds of students with everyone screaming to get hyped for stupid turnabout dance
I started feeling like rubbish for a couple weeks but then the last 3 days have been absolutly unbearable. Why is life so hard
Took me 21min to type this (not even that long of a post...)
I've been feeling kind of similar for weeks and months but today something has changed for me. I scored 2 for sensory for ADOS so moderate. I hope things improve for you. But reading that have got ways to try and manage this ;like ear defenders in assesmmbly fidigit toys. They was recommended to me by a sensory specialist. By the sounds of it it seems you may need your need assessed to manage the sensory as it sounds quite severe and like your needs at school are not being met.