Published on 12, July, 2020
I went from freelance to full time permanent employment at age 47.
Mortgage must be paid.
Thus not feeling free = prisoner of this circumstance, being told what to do.
What’s the point of living just to pay a mortgage, hating the workplace j hating my life hoping for a distant free future?
Or is my negativity just typical of Autism spectrum disorder?
I got diagnosed in 2018.
I have been there in the past, in a job I hated with every day like torture. I can relate to that feeling of being trapped. Unwisely I kept going because I thought I had no other choice. It resulted in a massive burnout / breakdown, from which I never fully recovered.
Do you have a plan for when you hope to retire? Making future plans for a better life can sometimes make the present more bearable.
How distant is your free future? Could you bring it forward by paying extra on the mortgage each month? I used to go into the bank the day before payday each month and whatever was left in my current account I transferred to my mortgage account. I managed to shave years off my mortgage by doing that.
Would giving up work and moving to a cheaper area be possible?
Could you go freelance again, to at least be more in control and less of a wage slave?