FUCING HATE MY LIFE everything about it
I'm glad you feel a bit better today Chris. It will take a little while to get over all these feelings but you can and will do it :) Remember you're strong and worth fighting for. Don't let them grind you down. I hope you can find new and better support soon. In the meantime we are all here for you, every step of the way :) have a fabulous day..!
I am feeling abit thank you, I have GAD too, I find it hard to control the anxieties I have, just always anxious about everything and i start feeling overwhelmed and start having panic attacks, I think I was overwhelmed with so many different types anxieties, rejection, abandonment, depression, I really do hate getting my self in that state but I cant control it all yet, t seems so hard just because theres just so many didn't things that causes me anxiety, and then feeling rejected from services, I rejected myself and start hating myself. It's all I know at the moment but I really need to sort it out, thank you asking
i have no hobbies i just use to work and play videos games i lost my job due to my mental health being so bad and i started playing video games for 12hours plus a day and became addicted to it, i had a PS5 but sold it as playing games became hard to concentraate on and i didnt get the enjoyment i use to get out of it anymore it seems to cause me anxiety in multiplayer games to the point id be holding my breath and getting tense and i have tried playing story type games but i seem to not be able to get into them
ah 32... i too am 32 and never had any friends and still live with parents, although i feel im fixing that now as i managed to fluke myself a job some months back and can set myself towards saving for a house at least and the job gives me the illusion of having freinds and a social life at least.
as for emotions, id say just learn to cherish them. im always perma depressed but i kinda thought on it and thought thats life... perhaps when we are dead and some sort of out of body being we dont feel any emotions and we choose to be reincarnated perhaps so we can feel again? a emotion rich life is perhaps like a drug that our spirit craves, it at least is a indicator that your living. perhaps the feel of emotions is just a release, and you have to accept and enjoy that release maybe and change view from feeling its bad or shameful to instead feel that its good like releasing a full to bursting bladder when you go to the toilet?
Hi Chris. First I want to send you positive vibes and a hug because I think you need that at the moment. I'm so sorry your feeling like this, about life and about yourself. Unfortunately life can kick you down sometimes and when that happens it can be hard to see a way forward and to keep going. I've been there many times as well. But remember to be kind to yourself, your not weak at all, I think you're a brave and strong man. Look at you still fighting and kicking life up the as! Good on you. That shows strength, character and drive.. and those are all fab qualities to have :) I feel for you regarding the mh services/system, it's fuking unreal and at times no help whatsoever. Let me down so many times and failed my little sister. Keep trying and be a pain, hopefully then in the end they will bother with you and give you the care and support you need and deserve. Until then please keep talking to all of us here, I can see that you are a liked and loved member here. It's lovely to see, shows What a wonderful person you are :)
Keep fighting. Keep being amazing. Keep being you! :)
cant escape my thoughts or feelings, cant manage my emotions, cant and never made friends, i dont know what friends or relationship feels like even with family, dont even know what it feels like to be happy, the people in services who are meant to be professionals but there not, they are just there to make money and to dismiss people without any care at all, trying to get people to understand me and no one listens, using the crisis number when i am in a crisis and get told i am being too dependant with them so there job is basically just to ring an ambulance and give advice such as go watch tv, emotional support helplines are people there just to sit there and listen and pretend to care, i feel like i am a freak of nature who has grew up wrong and developed alot of issues with no one around me at the age of 32 i feel like i do not belong to this world, i feel rejection everytime i try to use support services because they do not understand such as doctors, community support workers there just all fake people who acually dont give a *** about people, the way they talk to me the way they treat me is disgusting, im just weak and cant handle anything
