cant escape my thoughts or feelings, cant manage my emotions, cant and never made friends, i dont know what friends or relationship feels like even with family, dont even know what it feels like to be happy, the people in services who are meant to be professionals but there not, they are just there to make money and to dismiss people without any care at all, trying to get people to understand me and no one listens, using the crisis number when i am in a crisis and get told i am being too dependant with them so there job is basically just to ring an ambulance and give advice such as go watch tv, emotional support helplines are people there just to sit there and listen and pretend to care, i feel like i am a freak of nature who has grew up wrong and developed alot of issues with no one around me at the age of 32 i feel like i do not belong to this world, i feel rejection everytime i try to use support services because they do not understand such as doctors, community support workers there just all fake people who acually dont give a *** about people, the way they talk to me the way they treat me is disgusting, im just weak and cant handle anything
