Published on 12, July, 2020
Does anyone hit themselves or bite themselves when really distressed? I've suppressed this behaviour for a few years now but then I have recouring thoughts about doing it and I feel really overwhelmed. Anyone else do this? At the moment my mind loop is how the inlaws way over stepped boundaries which caused us catastrophic issues. I will never forgive what they have put us all through. My husband kept telling me I was wrong, I'd be confused and let them bsack in again. Its caused me so much issues I had 2 breakdowns. I no longer have contact with them, it was an ultimatum to my husband as I could take no more.
This was backed up professionally too, but the lasting damage is done. And every few months I have the battle in my head of what they done, why i didnt set firm boundaries. The mental abuse from them.
I've had counselling over the years. I'm just tired. My words are jumbled I cant say what I need to. Typing is a bit easier. My brains all mixed up because I'm suppressing hitting myself or hurting myself im sure it's making me more overwhelmed
Hi mouse, so very sorry to hear your going through all this. If typing helps then type away, I learned that it's better to have your thoughts and feelings out in the open rather than keep them locked away.
We're all here to listen and support you.
I know about self harming, I used to bite my hands to pieces. That was a long time ago and now I don't do it, I think it on really bad days but I haven't done it for about three years.
Sending you hugs.
T.
Hi Triniti, thank you for your reply. The urge has passed but I'm still not in a great place annoyingly. I hope you're well