Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi,
My name is Gary and I am 45 years old. About 18 months ago I had a pericarditis or an infection of the heart lining. It was caused by over-work and stress in my opinion. Then September last year, it was suggested to me from 3 different people which was a bit weird that I had Aspergers symdrome. I took a few online test and scored quite highly and it did tick a lot of boxes to problems and successes I have had in my life. Especially the obsessive nature I have with very specific topics. I went to doctors, didn't bring up the AS but the problems I was having. She got me to fill in a few tests and I scored high on the AS test again. I was referred but since that time I have had no word. My doctor is looking into it.
At the moment I feel a bit lost with it all, apart of me says just forget it as I have lived with this for quite a long time and in life I think I am doing ok. Equally, however in other parts of my life I doing quite badly, so that part of me wants to find out more. Figure out the rules and structures, so I can figure this all out. But since knowing I have noticed I get a lot of panic attacks and at times I can make them worse by obsessively doing things I know will bring them on. Sort of a shout for help but being a rather private people I end up masking it all. So it worries me that I could go down the same route I did 18 months ago and it seriously affecting my health.
The main reason I want to find out more is that I am now married with two children (Megan (7) and Rebecca (3)). Now Megan is showing signs but we are not sure, so taking a step at the time. It does worry me, how I can be at times and then looking after my children. I generally keep a handle on it as the priority of looking after them keeps me on track. I still worry I might slip.
So here I am looking for a bit of advice. Of what to do next?
Hope this makes some sort of sense.
Many thanks in advice for any help.
Regards
Gary
Hi Gary
i’m 42 and just had my epiphany...have you looked at Aspie traits can tried an AQ test? Best wishes to you
the elephant
Hi Elehpant, I have looked the at the traits and done AQ test both indicated strongly that I do have it and looking back it does seem that way.
I spoke to think a few weeks ago about thereferral that went thru in Sept last year. THeyare chasing at the moment. Plan to ask for an update this week.
So...are you going to brave the doctor to request a referral? x