Published on 12, July, 2020
Hey everyone (I'm new here!)So I'm in the last stage of getting diagnosed. I've done the testing and now I'm waiting two more weeks to go back and get my results. It's driving me crazy with overthinking and reliving it!!I'm 27 years old female and I spent my life selectively mute and masking my personality, which makes me worried that the doctor will not be able to properly "read" me. I'm skeptic that in just 3 visits someone can understand me enough to properly diagnose me... people that have know me for years still don't understand me! I'm also worried that I did too well on the tests and will appear too clever or too smart. For example, I'm an artist/animator so I was able to come up with a simple problem/resolution story rather easily during the story test. The tests didn't seem hard- were they suppose to be hard? I know that the tests are not merely about my answers, but also about my behavior, but what if I sat there completely stiff with hands out of sight? I'm just concerned that I didn't appear "autistic enough". Whatever that means. Gah! Did anyone else have these concerns??If anyone can give me a bit of reassurance, that would be nice. I feel like for the first time in my life I'm discovering something really important about myself, but I'm afraid that it will get stolen from me if I don't get an ASD diagnosis. I've done so much soul searching over my life trying to figure myself out and how to belong and it will be a HUGE disappointment if I yet again am "rejected". Thanks in advance. <3
I am just beginning my journey, I have yet to be tested, I am waiting for a date to begin the assessments. You are way ahead of me. Remember the saying. 'A watched pot, never boils' Regardless, I have longer than you to wait. Do you have your own 'I-niverse?'
Hi Hendrow
I am quite surprised how quick the process is going. I've heard some people's assessments can take close to a year or even more. So I'm watching youtube videos of other's diagnosis stories in the mean time. It's like I'm discovering a whole new life that I never knew about!
What is an I-niverse? If you mean the fictional world that I've been building through art and stories for past 25 + years than absolutely. I have characters with richer personalities than myself! Do you have an I-niverse too?
I think the term I-niverse is very clever. I think it fits me well too. My fictional world is huge in my head, but I'm so private with it. I'd love to make it into a graphic novel, but I struggle with translating it into one story because there are so many characters.
My I-niverse, the word kind of reminds of how isolating - self isolating aka selfish I can be without even trying Han.