I don’t know what I’m doing with my life

Basically as the title says,

I’m a 27 old old autistic woman in the UK 

I live with my mum 

No social life, no relationships, no work 

The years are just blowing by and I don’t know what I’m doing or supposed to be doing 

I tried working a few jobs but they’ve never lasted 

Nothing interests me job or career wise, and all seems unattainable anyway

It would help if I was actually good at something or had genuine hobbies so I could at least pursue those… 

I worry a lot about my mum growing old, because I don’t know how I will cope with it, I can’t imagine a life without her 

As toxic as it is, it feels like she’s really the only thing I live for

I’ve tried to end my life before

I’ve tried cbt therapy and been to a few support groups, but actually left feeling more helpless