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I don’t know what I’m doing with my life

NAS92433

Basically as the title says,

I’m a 27 old old autistic woman in the UK 

I live with my mum 

No social life, no relationships, no work 

The years are just blowing by and I don’t know what I’m doing or supposed to be doing 

I tried working a few jobs but they’ve never lasted 

Nothing interests me job or career wise, and all seems unattainable anyway

It would help if I was actually good at something or had genuine hobbies so I could at least pursue those… 

I worry a lot about my mum growing old, because I don’t know how I will cope with it, I can’t imagine a life without her 

As toxic as it is, it feels like she’s really the only thing I live for

I’ve tried to end my life before

I’ve tried cbt therapy and been to a few support groups, but actually left feeling more helpless

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  • Hi, would you consider volunteering? Doesn’t have to be particularly sociable, animal charities often have volunteers help walk the dogs or clean out the cats, guinea pigs etc. or would you consider learning something new, just for yourself by doing an online course, or going to a library and borrowing a book on something random, just to broaden your work, even if only from your home? Could you plant a few veggies in the garden? Walk at least 5k per day?  It doesn’t have to be these things, but I’m just an older person with ideas of how to make my world bigger, when I often try to make it smaller. 
    being on here and joining in conversations is a good start. 

  • in reply to Orangegnome

    I go for a walk every day. Not sure how many steps lol. 

    I tried volunteering at a farm, and while it was a distraction, I felt awkward and still felt sad. I tried being social with other people but it wasn’t well reciprocated the way I’d hoped. It seemed like the other volunteers were going through their own things too, I remember another volunteer bursting into tears (not sure why). There was only one ‘support worker’ on hand, so when she was free, I tried to have small talk with her. 

    I don’t know if its just me but, when you don’t feel like anyone wants to chat with you, or befriend you, you start to feel like there is something wrong with you. I kept going to the farm but eventually I started to feel worse about myself. I began to go non verbal because I felt uncomfortable, so I left.

    Now because of that experience, I’m scared to try again

  • in reply to NAS92433

    Oh, and I’ve done some online courses in different subject at home, not really in anything I would be interested in pursuing job wise but just out of boredom

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