I don’t know what I’m doing with my life

Basically as the title says,

I’m a 27 old old autistic woman in the UK 

I live with my mum 

No social life, no relationships, no work 

The years are just blowing by and I don’t know what I’m doing or supposed to be doing 

I tried working a few jobs but they’ve never lasted 

Nothing interests me job or career wise, and all seems unattainable anyway

It would help if I was actually good at something or had genuine hobbies so I could at least pursue those… 

I worry a lot about my mum growing old, because I don’t know how I will cope with it, I can’t imagine a life without her 

As toxic as it is, it feels like she’s really the only thing I live for

I’ve tried to end my life before

I’ve tried cbt therapy and been to a few support groups, but actually left feeling more helpless

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  • I think if you're autistic, CBT is not always great unless it's specially tailored to suit? I read a book on autistic therapy and it suggested other methods night be better.

    I've heard on here about something called social prescribing? I think if you went to your GP and said you are feeling a bit hopeless, and you do sound a bit depressed as that also makes it hard to find joy in any hobbies, and ask about it? (If anyone else has more details, that might help!) You could also ask about autism friendly therapy to help get you out of this dip. 

    When you are that lost, it's incredibly difficult to get yourself out of it, and it's okay to try and get some help. It's really good to talk about it, maybe even try join in on some general posts on here, no pressure but just doing little things might help? There was also a thread on simple jobs, try have a read of that if you need ideas too?

    Best of luck to you!

    • yeah, after trying cbt i had other autistic people telling me it doesn’t always help people like us. But it seems like every gp or health professional i’ve spoken to expect a one all size fits all approach to work when it doesn’t. 

    I’ve also been told to try counselling, for what exactly?? 

    Do these people not understand that because of my autism I inherently have trauma for just existing and people not knowing how to deal with me or treat me? For living in a society that isn’t built for us? That lacks understanding and support? I’m probably always gonna be going through something in my life, does that mean I need to spend my life in therapy? Or shoving medication at me and expecting it to go away? It won’t help at all either. And that’s all the help I am given these days. 

    How many times do I have to repeat myself, its exhausting. And it still gets me nowhere, no support to change things. I think that is why so many of us give up.

    I’ve been to support groups in my area and they don’t seem run properly and lack staff. It’s fine if I wanna spend an evening at a CRISIS HUB, colouring and trauma dumping to a bunch of people (who probably don’t wanna hear it), but I’ve found people don’t really wanna talk to me. I try to be social and nice and smiley but maybe I give off a weird vibe? When I went once, no one was really encouraged to talk to one another, it was strange. 

    • As for social prescribing, I reached out to my gp and asked for it, then someone contacted me, they told me we could do something together, IF I arranged it. What?? I explained that I don’t really have hobbies, so what am I supposed to arrange/organise? 

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    • yeah, after trying cbt i had other autistic people telling me it doesn’t always help people like us. But it seems like every gp or health professional i’ve spoken to expect a one all size fits all approach to work when it doesn’t. 

    I’ve also been told to try counselling, for what exactly?? 

    Do these people not understand that because of my autism I inherently have trauma for just existing and people not knowing how to deal with me or treat me? For living in a society that isn’t built for us? That lacks understanding and support? I’m probably always gonna be going through something in my life, does that mean I need to spend my life in therapy? Or shoving medication at me and expecting it to go away? It won’t help at all either. And that’s all the help I am given these days. 

    How many times do I have to repeat myself, its exhausting. And it still gets me nowhere, no support to change things. I think that is why so many of us give up.

    I’ve been to support groups in my area and they don’t seem run properly and lack staff. It’s fine if I wanna spend an evening at a CRISIS HUB, colouring and trauma dumping to a bunch of people (who probably don’t wanna hear it), but I’ve found people don’t really wanna talk to me. I try to be social and nice and smiley but maybe I give off a weird vibe? When I went once, no one was really encouraged to talk to one another, it was strange. 

    • As for social prescribing, I reached out to my gp and asked for it, then someone contacted me, they told me we could do something together, IF I arranged it. What?? I explained that I don’t really have hobbies, so what am I supposed to arrange/organise? 

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