Hi and looking for help/assistance/pointers

Hi,

I have been thinking about how to start/what to write for quite a while and it changes every time. I could write war and peace, then go back and write it all again. I'm 57 and after yet another meltdown (seem to happen almost on a regular basis), earlier in the year, a friend suggested I may be somewhat autistic, as he saw similar things in me as he has with his Daughter. I looked in to it and could see some similarities, so arranged to meet a professional. After some discussions, questionnaires, I had a follow up meeting. I wasn't told, in advance, the meeting would be to give me the outcome (which basically said I had a level of autism). I was shown a report and asked to see if there was anything I wanted to change. I wasn't sure what I was reading. I then had to confirm things before the report was "locked" down to be sent to the GP etc. There wasn't any time to discuss further options, then the meeting was over. I got an email a couple of days later with some support links on it.

Anyway, having had another slide over the past few days, I am wondering if there are any specialist counselors/therapists who can assist people with autism? I'm in the Bracknell, Berkshire area. I have seen various therapists over the years to try and find out why things happen the way they seem to do. When I'm on "song" I can do pretty much anything, but when I have a slump, I can't be bothered and it's too much. It's easier to toss aside those closest and I become cold, callous and uncaring, which I don't like at all. My little brain has a field day and the inner voice is rampant with negativity.

I would love to find a way to be able to cope, not feel threatened, catastrophising, trapped, accepting etc. I would love to be able to take my partner way next year (for her birthday) and enjoy it without melting down, like I did last year, which was a real shame. I had managed to get myself in to a pretty good place beforehand. There's soo much more but I should probably leave things here for now.

Thanks for reading