Surprise!

Hello everyone. I appeared about 8 months ago when I was helping one of my adult sons seek diagnosis. 

To my utter surprise I find myself in the middle of the diagnosis process for myself. After much research and thinking - and a push from my sympathetic manager at work - I asked my GP for a Right to Choose referral. I went for Skylight Psychiatry and it’s proving much quicker than expected.  I always knew I was a bit weird but never had it occurred to me that I might be autistic. With the way things are going that looks very likely. 

I am completely kerfuffled by this turn of events. Lightbulb after lightbulb is switching on as suddenly so many of my difficulties make sense. Since the last appointment - the life history one - which was the first time I’ve spoken openly about how difficult I find life - I’ve been unable to sleep properly. No idea with what of course as I’ve also learned I don’t know which emotion I’m experiencing. 

I’m sure I will ask lots of daft questions as I work out how or if I explain myself to my friends and family. It hasn’t gone well so far - after all I’ve been masking for 59 years.