Published on 12, July, 2020
I've been off for a while now , a couple of month , December 7th will mark my friends 4yr anniversiry of her death which i'm not going to talk rn . I was on and off hospital for multiple suicide attempts more trouble with police since ever , and i'm going back to college in January after my surgery, i'm getting eye surgery and i still have thoughts of how i will die next week . IDK what i should do anymore. the thought of having surgery when i'm going to be wide awake for it .