Published on 12, July, 2020
Feeling abit lost. I was diagnosed last summer just after my 50th birthday. Idk who I am right now. I’ve done a degree and then a job I was shoehorned into my whole working life which has been v costly to my wellness. I’ve been in a marriage I was manipulated into for 24 years which I’ve now left. So now I have no home, job, I’ve moved counties and am starting over. Everything is disordered. Inside I’m so stressed. To get through my life so far I’ve masked …..so hard I’m now exhausted and ill. I don’t know how not to mask or who I am or what I do. After half a century it is second nature to pretend. I really needed to write this…
I’m newly diagnosed and have similar feelings not knowing who I am, masking for so long. It is hard