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Goblin
over 1 year ago

Hi, I'm new here and this is my first time reaching out on any kind of social forum.

I was recently diagnosed with autism, I have struggled a lot my whole life with social interactions and due to so many misunderstandings and trauma I have spent a long time believing there is something wrong with me/that I'm a bad person (because no matter how hard I would try I would still upset or annoy people without understanding or realising).

I was previously diagnosed with bipolar but recently it has been concluded that it was always autism and ADHD, which due to not being picked up on led to many problems that then caused the psychosis like secondary issues.

I've lived more than 10 years now in isolation, and live alone. I don't go outside and I am afraid to be seen by others or interact with them so I only see doctors and such for my many health issues. I rely on pets and online interactions to deal with the loneliness, but found that online gaming communities are very toxic and I couldn't cope in them anymore.

I have really severe anxiety, so have never been able to reach out in any communities before now. I hope I haven't overshared, as I know I have a habit of doing so and annoying people.

It would be nice to have people to talk to though, so thank you for your time if anyone has spent it reading this :)

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  • over 1 year ago

    Hello Goblin 

    Welcome to the community forum. I've deleted all of my social media accounts and feel better. Also getting weather is getting warmer now. During covid outbreak I felt isolated and got given a goody bag from a local charity.

    Now trying to rebuild my life. I go to a local group where do different types of things. The organiser invited me. I go to the ones enjoy doing. Feel like someone is pushing me to go everyone. The website isn't brilliant and clear (some cost extra);

    My family was interfering by forcing me to find a job and do volunteering somewhere else. Also going behind my back. I get asked in my town uncomfortable questions. Think people don't understand that I was in a bad place for a long time and was mortified what I saw. Management knew and didn't prevent this. Tried something new and had a massive anxiety attack. During 2020 had threatened letters and emails. Raised issues and no response. Had no after care. :(

  • over 1 year ago in reply to Deleted user

    It's nice that you get to go out again as you felt isolated during covid, I guess in a way I was lucky that it was already my normal. I'm sorry to hear about your family not being supportive and actively stressing you out, that really sucks.

    I've been in the system for most of my life and I know that follow up and after care can be extremely lacking too, but you're still here and figuring things out and that's important.

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  • over 1 year ago in reply to Deleted user

    It's nice that you get to go out again as you felt isolated during covid, I guess in a way I was lucky that it was already my normal. I'm sorry to hear about your family not being supportive and actively stressing you out, that really sucks.

    I've been in the system for most of my life and I know that follow up and after care can be extremely lacking too, but you're still here and figuring things out and that's important.

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