Published on 12, July, 2020
I’m 53 and deep down have always known that my outlook is very different to others.
For as long as I can remember I’ve struggled with things that some find easy and even exciting, I have just developed strategies to cope with the demands of life, mainly ensuring I’m busy, I’m in control and things are on my terms. This obviously doesn’t always work and relationships have suffered.
I haven’t sought help or a diagnosis before as I always thought it was just me, but the more the world has changed and the more we are encouraged to accept and celebrate our differences the more I have realised I may not be on my own.
However, what will having a diagnosis change for me, I will still feel all the things I have felt for the last 40 plus years, the anxiety won’t go away when my husband suggests going somewhere different on holiday, I won’t suddenly be able to maintain friendships.
It will give you peace of mind and hopefully some answers to questions you've maybe had for most of your life.
I didn't think my own diagnosis would do much for me, didn't think it would be worth, but actually it is the best thing that ever happened to me and did give me that inner peace and crushed the doubts that had plagued me for 26 years.
If you want to then do go for it. You've got everything to gain from this.