Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi, I'm Rai. I am currently waiting for an assessment via Right to Choose with Psychiatry UK - referral was confirmed by my GP on 3rd February. I'm 42 and transgender ftm. I'm studying a BA in Education Studies with TESOL (Teaching English to Speakers of Other Languages) and planning a MA by Thesis related to translanguaging afterwards.
I am going through a lot of change and 'new' at the moment and really struggling so I thought I should look for some peer support.
I enjoy learning about languages and I am currently studying Mandarin, Klingon, Swahili and Hungarian - I like learning how languages work rather than how to speak them. I am also a bit of a Dr Who fan.
I would love to have some people to talk to who share my interests.
Not sure what else to say.
Hi Rai, I'm Alice.
I teach ESL and am also a big fan of languages. I'm not great at speaking them, but I've collected the basics of about 13 (and by basic, I mean basic lol). I enjoy learning the different ways people express themselves and how that changes depending on the language and culture. I guess this might be an extension of my general interest in people and how they interact, something I'm beginning to think I will never understand.
If you ever want to talk about anything, I'm always here to listen and offer my (sometimes questionable and always optional) advice
Hi Alice!
Yes I can relate. I think that's why I like languages too. I love watching people, but some recent dating experiences have taught me that I still don't get people and possibly never will.
I find languages are a window into how people live and how they see the world. I know the Sapier- Worf hypothesis is controversial but I thought no it has something going for it.
Have you read Through the language glass?
I have not. Would you recommend it?
I'm beginning to notice just how much time I spend watching others when I'm in a group situation, normally focusing on one person at a time. I think it's a requirement for my brain to assess the situation and decide where I fit in before actually attempting to do so.
It's possible that I'm going through a phase of over analysing my behaviours at the moment lol
Yes, I feel like I'm missing out. I would love to visualise at all. I can't imagine anything, not even feelings I was absolutely fine about that until I found out that people can imagine with all their senses.
I would love to experience it just once.
I was actually triggered recently by an article about AI artwork, there were some cool psychedelic paintings and someone had commented that they looked like dreams. I was so sad about missing out on the whole dreaming experience that I had to stop reading and put the article away
I'm well jealous. Dreams sound like fun. I have a friend who can dream walk too, she has some interesting insights into how you can tell when something is real or not...
It really is interesting isn't it? No I don't remember my dreams unless they are night terrors. Again, I may remember feelings but don't know where they've come from.
My commiserations to you. I rarely remember my dreams, but when I do, they are often hum dingers! They always leave me with LOTS to think about. I do love to dream!
Oooo! How interesting! I'm not sure I remember sounds either, just pictures and feelings...
May I ask, do you remember your dreams? I don't. It's like a light on, light off situation. Occasionally, I'm vaguely aware of having dreamt but that's it.
It really is. I only feel my memories other than that everything is blank, no visuals, no sounds, no smells (who knew that was a thing) just feelings and they're so much more intense than the first time around, but at the same time abstract. It's really odd.
It's nice knowing you're not alone though, isn't it? Do you have 3rd person memories too? Some things I remember from outside the situation, like I was watching a TV programme. I know it's just my imagination, but I wonder what causes memories like that...
I do that too. I only just found out it wasn't how everyone remembers so you have my unequivocal sympathy on that.
Interesting. I shall have to look into getting myself a copy... Thanks for the recommendation.
We're all human and make mistakes. I like to look at them as learning opportunities, even the horrible cringey ones. Which can be difficult sometimes, I relive feelings when I remember things so I get a second (often stronger) dose of discomfort lol