Waiting 2 years and still not assessment :-|

Hello all.

I've never joined a community forum before or thought I could be Autistic until my little beauty was diagnosed.  I always thought it was my x husband who appeared on the spectrum because of his stereotypical traits.  The more my daughter grows and the more I research females on the spectrum, the more I suspect I could be.  I am feeling very anxious now knowing when I will be assessed, what it will entail and what the outcome will be.  I'm wondering with the NHS being so underfunded to start with never mind Covid that I may not be able to access specific help if I do receive a diagnosis.  I also wonder if I don't receive a diagnosis how I am going to navigate my life with my ongoing struggle with daily things that others can do easily - SHOPPING CENTRES!!!!!!!! I do love socialising which's why I never thought I could be Autistic but I've realised that I only enjoy socialising with people who are deep and philosophical, I hate small talk and bitchiness.  There are so many things about me that I thought everyone felt.  I am now beginning to understand that the things that I find tough are not conducive to the majority as I had always believed.....

There's a lot to my first post because I have a lot going on in my mind about it all.  I'm wondering what peoples thoughts are about the diagnostic process and if it leads to more support and understanding?  I'm wondering if others also struggle with shopping centres but are social?  I'm also intrigued to hear if people on the spectrum want to apply a small kick to the behinds of people who say "I'm fine" when evidently they are not......

Thanks for listening.

I look forward to hearing your views.

H. :-)