Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello, welcome. Thanks for your intro. I was diagnosed last year and yes it's a long wait filled with a lot of self interrogation and introspection. I don't know why I went ahead with the diagnosis, because it hasn't led to anything tangible, but at least I know I'm a member of a big and diverse club and this is my lifelong condition.
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Hi. I think part of the reason of wanting an official diagnosis is I want to try to control melting down and let’s just say breaking things and swearing( not proud) as people constantly have a go at me when I am in full swing (not realising that fuels the fire...) . I find myself unable to control what I say or do and nobody can get me out of it until it happens naturally. The more I hear and research bout Aspergers/ASD a lot of my life starts making sense. wasn’t highlighted much as a kid as lived on a farm in middle of nowhere so didn’t have the social interaction to react to. Moving was a hell of a culture shock and hated it. Without realising it I masked a lot to overcome my differences but never socialised as never could hold a conversation with anyone.
Makes sense, and gives a kind of foundation to work on. I also moved to an area where I knew almost no-one, 12 years ago. I think it was way more damaging than I realised. I think I've lived on adrenaline without knowing.
Do you feel as though you look back on your whole life through a new lens?
Lol. I studied the titanic in my teenage years and read every book and watched every dvd I could find. And can reel off all reg numbers of the tractors on the farm
I suddenly realised why I read all our family's encyclopaedias, lol
Yes. Right down to knowing car make and models and remembering reg numbers as a kid and having very acute, obsessive and specific interests. Even now if I buy a car I will research all possible information before I get the car so I know all possible reliability issues or options etc.