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Hello everyone,

I've been recently diagnosed with an ASD, high performing / Asperger type..exact details are yet to be reported. 

I really want to socialise and be a part of the society. But keeping up the pretense is so exhausting. How can i survive an entire party? (yes seriously considering attending a Christmas party!)  I find it difficult to understand why people do party and mingle, I don't see the benefit and all i ever get is really tired and stressed out...but i know i must socialize otherwise i'll turn into a recluse.  the irony is this is something I really want to do but it feels like i'm just causing myself agony and anguish for no reason....does anyone have any helpful advice and coping strategies?? 

x