Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi,
This is first thing I've written here, please be gentle.
I have used alcohol to cope with my somewhat tumultuous life since I was 25. I'm now in my 30s.
I have never entertained the thought that I might be on the spectrum until recently (the past year) when, not only my friends suggested it, but also when I tentatively mentioned it and my own brother didn't bat an eye and said "yeah maybe".
I'm a little shocked and intrigued. I've since spoken to a specialist who just happened to be a friend of my friend - the conversation I had with her felt so relaxed and like a relief. She even said she'd gone through a period of drinking before she was diagnosed.
I'd really be interested to hear if anyone else has had issues with alcohol
It's not really about wanting to drink per se - it's the focus that it gives, and the relief from all the thoughts and feeling uncomfortable.
To level out this post, I'll also add that I'm a grown woman with values and good cognitive reasoning - I've also achieved good things in my life - but not as many as I intended!!
H x
Hi, I started drinking in my teens, most probably it was when I had to be sociable and try to fit it. I tend to limit where I interact with others. Alcohol is the only way that I can attend any social occasion. It kills the inner me off for a few hours, I can then act like, most probably the wrong word but ‘ normal’ people. The anxiety and awkwardness can be kept at bay for a few hours .I try not to drink in the week now and I’m fine as I work alone and don’t have to talk very much. I am one of those people who can’t have one drink. I’m now in my 50’s and waiting for an assessment at the moment.