Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm suffering from extreme anxiety right now - it's the worst I've ever had - by miles.
It a lack of a clear way forward - everything is chaos. I can't see a pattern so I can't work out a strategy.
I'm bothered by the whole Corona-thing - this house-arrest/lockdown (Sweden didn't do it and their death-rate is lower) so it's a deep distrust of the government and their malicious intentions towards the people and the economy and jobs.
It's also caused by every shop or service suddenly thinking they have the right to nanny me and control whether I can walk around their shop the wrong way.
I'm annoyed by the way the general public are reacting to the bogeyman - ratting out their neighbours for not obeying some spurious 'rules'.
I'm frustrated that there's nowhere to go - all the museums or places to visit are closed.
I'm frustrated with not even being able to go to the local cafe for lunch.
I'm frustrated by not being able to meet with friends.
To top it all, I've got some building work going on here and there's a crunch point that could drastically complicate the work - with no clear/cheap solution.
I'm waking up in the night, every night, all night - I'm getting no more than 2 hours sleep at a time and then I'm 100% wide awake again with all sorts of unwanted thoughts buzzing in my mind. I can feel my tight chest and I'm sure my blood pressure is getting some record scores. My dreams are becoming very dark and quite horrible. Video nasties. I'm stunned at just how unpleasant my subconscious can be. My dreams are traumatising me.
I'm waking up too hot or too cold or just uncomfortable and I can't get back to sleep.
Obviously, this is not healthy but I don't know what to do - none of these are irrational things so it's not like seeing the doctor will help - a load of meds won't solve anything. It's knowing that I can't actually do anything about any of it. I guess that powerless feeling isn't helping. I just can't stop my brain massively over-processing a lack of data.
How is everyone else coping?
Does anyone have any suggestions to reduce stress?
Any suggestions on what I can do in the middle of the night? I'm at the point where I might even just get up and go for a walk in the small hours.
I'm struggling too.
Scared that the virus has caused long term lung damage as I'm still struggling with daily tasks although improved from what I was.
Tired of peoples rubbish attitudes to each other and not thinking about the actions to the stuff they do to others
Fed up of peoples children out in mass causing criminal damage at being a nuisance daily.
Tired and anxious of drug gangs we now to have in our street.
Tired I cant just pop to the shop to get a few things
Scared of money loss after losing my job during to the virus
I hate the world, I feel like people are the virus and their slowly destroying it little by little. It's a scary world we live in and it doesnt have to be this way
Yes - people are behaving very strangely - they've even forgotten how to drive.
I'm concerned with all the perspex screens in shops and stupid tape on the floor and random 2m rules and basically every little part of British life being taken away. Everyone is afraid of everyone else. The government have done such a good job with their fear-propaganda that they've paralysed people's rational brains.
Here people dont bother with the arrows or whatever else. Theyve just made their behaviour worse than usual its affected their brains! I wish that I could afford to move miles away