Published on 12, July, 2020
I am going through a rough time at the moment, but one of my biggest flaws is that I cannot ask for help or support, or even communicate what is going on.
Today I went to my GP as a last resort as I have been feeling suicidal and struggling with life in general. Due to the ways I express myself (flat, non-expressive) I think a lot of people fail to realise how serious things really are and this is compiled with me not being able to communicate the severity properly either.
I need the support from other people, but my previous experience of this from my family wasn't great, if anything I was left feeling a bit of a nut case and a burden.
I need to tell my partner what is going on without feeling judge or a let down (this is from experience), but I just can't. To make things worse he always asks me about how I feel, when as I have expressed in other posts, I'm pretty certain I have Alexithymia, so I don't know what I am feeling. The best I can explain is good, neutral or bad, which doesn't help anyone.
I am seriously considering handing in my notice in at my job tomorrow, but I don't know if this is the overwhelmed depressed me taking action, or the sensible logical me that is seeing the light at the end of the tunnel - either way I need support and guidance to help steer me.
Starbuck said:I am going through a rough time at the moment, but one of my biggest flaws is that I cannot ask for help or support, or even communicate what is going on.
I have the exact same problem and can definitely relate to what you are saying! And what is difficult is that sometimes it takes a while to realise that this is causing life to be difficult. So, firstly you've made a huge process just figuring this out. And I'm really glad that you went to your GP and told him that you are struggling. I hope things will be a bit easier for you now. Best wishes with everything!