Published on 12, July, 2020
My only way to cope with my autism is to use dissociation. I only started getting this two years ago and as most of the research I did said that its over a stressful time I thought it was because of my mum getting a new job. But I have an under active thyroid and I then did more research and found out that the pills I was taking (levothyroxin) could cause dissociation. Recently over the Xmas break I have been out of routine and so have been forgetting to take my pill. Cos of this I have been having angry meltdowns increased anxiety and heavy mood swing which since taking the pill to dissociate out I haven't. I'm now back on them and have return to a more neurotypical person. With dissociation I feel like I'm in a dream and often can't remember or have no idea what people are really saying to me, to some the is a very bad mental illness but to me it makes me better and it is the only way for me to cope. What do you guys think should I get this checked out and stopped when I'm a better person with it ? Does anybody else have this I'm so confused and really need some answers? Love Lily xxxx
I had no idea. I called it 'cinema mode' and used it to outthink my competition. I can see around corners, speed it up, slow it down, throw in alternate characters or props. I don't see the Super Mario shining coin, but it wouldn't be out of place. I took my self out of it, put the mask on auto-pilot, and spaced right the heck out. That's depersonalization-derealization disorder, but masking itself is multiple personality disorder. I've also had amnesia as a dissociative defense. I essentially wake up driving sometimes. Need to stop it. It has been a good third of my waking life.
Sorry. They made me create an account after I typed the first one, so I thought that didn't get published.
Don't worry, both messages add a little bit more detail. It's interesting reading you describing it, similar to the OP, as something perhaps that can be used. I don't know enough about dissociation to be able to recognise if anything I'm doing would "qualify" but I do get into states that I could describe as detached and can sometimes choose it. I guess you've made me want to read up.
(Also if these are your first posts, then welcome to the community!)