Published on 12, July, 2020
My Aspergers my symptoms Selectively mute (I only talk when spoken to)
Lack empathy but I do have sympathy but I have my own way of expressing it. It might seem like I’m careless
Use fake smiles to disguise I’m ok
Feeling dead inside No dreams since I was 13
Get migraines from people’s voices
Lack guilt
Don’t know how to socialise or make or maintain friends properly or can’t start a conversation, my way of saying bye is walking away.
Can’t go outside alone without feeling overwhelmed, need someone beside me
College classroom don’t like table layoutEye contact is an issue
Body coordination is bad - unbalanced walking, slouching, leaning
Fidgeting with items like turning lights off and on and constantly adjusting per hour
Making schedules everyday and trying to perfect it
Physics and mathematics as daily study as It relieves me
Art - particularly drawing people, calms me down
Head jerking/ flinching
Seizures
Been like this all my life since I started nursery onwards, at home I’m perfectly fine and happiest.
I have an above average IQ
Sleep issues
Routines are important to me
What they tell me- Asians are culturally quiet (well the ones I know are either shy or loud the shy ones still have plenty of friends and seem to understand the need to socialise, while I feel alienated, alone and misunderstood- Girls are unlikely to have it- and they assume I have social anxiety - well guess what? Is it possible to be born with social anxiety?- They use the male criteria to conclude whether I have Aspergers or not. I’ve been having these issues since I was in nursery, I’ve taken anxiety medication, depressents, and other medications but non have helped me. I’m also 18, that probably why they don’t want to diagnose me.
Have you done an AQ test...do it, book a doctors appointment, print out your score. Phone the znAS helpline and please doit feel alone
signed Ellie
42 yrs
female
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