18_09_17.....For those that have lost the thread....mis-wired ramblings....short circuit!

I went and did my deceased persons garden, including mowing the lawn which nearly did for me as it's quite big and he has a hideous big heavy (doesn't) hover mower. Now I'm going to practice my bass, later than usual as OH is on night shifts which always leaves me out of step with myself.

You evidently survived..

Sorry Spotty..

is there anything I can do to help...sorry for getting through my day...don't ever thing that I have it all Sussex. From 16 years teaching I have built myself a teflon coated shell...I am built like a Russian Doll. , but *** scared and a mess at my centre,,,and it is not far down to get to that xx 

Sorry Spotty..

is there anything I can do to help...sorry for getting through my day...don't ever thing that I have it all Sussex. From 16 years teaching I have built myself a teflon coated shell...I am built like a Russian Doll. , but *** scared and a mess at my centre,,,and it is not far down to get to that xx 

hi missy thought you had gone beddie byes? Climb aboard we have guinea pigs to care for,and spotty tortoises as well as elephants, a big job but together we will cope,I will get me shovel!

Yes please I love animals. 

I meant here as in in my house!  

Now that's better,one thing we are great at is assuming things that aren't necessarily what we think they are.

Having been outside just now I think I better start building the ark! Argh jimlad,looking for a crew to sail it.any takers? Ellie pack your trunk.we are off Lol.

I only used to performing a fuctional role for someone......no one has ever taken me on board for being me...

i am off to walk the plank (joke)

btw.. tomorrow is International speak like a pirate day! Not joking ...it is a thing! Believe me 

Ellie you have concentrated hours at work full of people on all sides either colleagues or students and you have lessons to prepare and teach that uses up lotsvof spoons. When you come home you want to relax but presumably you have things you have to to there too and that uses lots of spoons too  So it's ok to come here to chatter to other people who found their day hard work as well and it's also ok if they can't join in all the time somebof the time is fine  That you still have a sense of humour to help keep yourself and us going is quite something. So don't worry if we haven't got that stamina or don't feel jokey every day. Why would the mods mind that we are looking after one another ? There are plenty of threads to join in or start if this one doesn't suit them.. something for everyone I hope.  Take care Ellie Spotty and Lone and hope Toms week is going ok. 

Helps me to feel I am not alone too. And you do help just by being here.  We all contribute in our different ways. 

Ellie you can't fall as I have a firm grip on you,Honestly you do a damn good job of helping us out,don't turn that into"everyone's counting on me" as we aren't counting on you. You do this for your reasons,we happen to find it all so very reassuring and fun,we are integrating nicely thanks. Got to go pick up wife,I am coming back.xxxxxxx

Plus there are all sorts of serious topics going on about specific things. We wouldn't chat on this one if we didn't want to. Maybe it is selfish but I need this more general chatter, serious, fun, poetry, teasing etc sometimes I don't speak to anyone all day and certainly not to people who understand. It's ok to dip in and dip out sometimes more able to join in than at others. We're all needed. The cascading posts are quite tricky but all the other posts have that too it's just these get quite long. 

This saves me from falling from the edge....it helps to feel that I am not alone...hurts that I cannot help as I would like x 

We do need somewhere just to chatter generally. This is fine. I think we are just tired tonight. It's good to have someone to chat to at the end of the day. 

Hey not draining me,uplifting more like.I was already drained.I smile just knowing the chatter continues without me Lol. I want to be a teacher! No really I do,but adults as an instructor.won't happen though unless the back gets really bad.

Music and a cuddle ah yes,I have to be careful when I am like this as music makes me cry! Honest I find certain music or singing so great I cry.I become a blubbering mess,sometimes I do it to cleanse my soul.

steering the boat,I thought you were? What's the worst can happen? Bang! Landed then.

You are the least self indulgent person I know.

ellie we all luv you so chill.

without you Ellie the fun would dry up.my honest view.Have a big cuddle from me.x

Tough day Lonewarrior. Sorry to hear you are in more pain today. 20mins hot bath with Epsom salts is good for aches and pains. I can't use my bath but that always helped. The manual work you do lifting and shovelling gets harder now you're 55! Hope the pain doesn't interrupt your sleep too much. 

Night everyone. ()()()

Thank you lovely - teaching maketh the mask..,they expect you to lead and support...

right now music and being held would be a great thing...,

whose steering the boat btw? Where the feek are we going?

regretting starting this thread it seems like an incredible self indulgence and draining people....x

Hi Ellie missy and spotty sorry I haven't been on tonite,feeling very worn out,had a lot of hip pain and back pain,lots of codiene,working outside every day is challenging,today was ok,odd patch of rain,but when laying and finishing concrete it can mean the difference between brilliant job or failure. Every morning I look out the window first.we are heading into winter,nites drawing in,our job gets pretty rough,freezing cold and wet,darkness. Better dig out the layers soon,thermals,thick socks.

Sorry for the downer but even tired I just had to pop in and say hi.

Take care all, spotty I certainly don't have things Sussed! Just rumbling along getting by,I don't know the real me,my mask is so much better than some, I have spent my entire life just coping/adapting,I like to think I have done well! A bit to well as trying to just be me isn't easy,keep slipping into character perceived.

missy you have done really well,major disruption of cleaning walls,moving loads of stuff,strangers in the house.you are amazing.chin up.

ellie nice to see you coping,or is the Monday mask stronger than usual? Anyway I thank you for this new thread and keeping us going,

big hugs for all ()()()xxx

Best wishes to both x

And both of you. New day tomorrow xx()()

Do you mean here as in "home" or here as in this thread! 

Have you noticed how the weather affects everyone here..in terms of exacerbating the downs and the ups! 

You don't have anything to be sorry for. Sussex? I presume you mean sussed? I don't assume anyone on here has things sussed!  OH works 12 hour shifts, nights and days in blocks of three or four usually, there's a sort of pattern but it is over such a long period it isn't discernible to me.  There really is no routine here, just randomness and I really don't think it helps me, not much to be done about it though.

Take care of yourself Ellie and Missy too.