Published on 12, July, 2020
I would say I've had a most horrible day, went back for ESA assessment as did have one with a nurse on 20th July, tho she postponed it as she'd thought I'd be better assessed by a doctor given me being a prem baby , and I had difficulty breathing. So went along to another assessment today ,( which was running 2 hours late), when the "doctor" said about his qualifications , he wasn't a doctor at all but a physiotherepist. My main issue is Aspergers and mental health issues, and WTF would a physio know about them?
I've just had my result. 0 points. I have hEDS, FND,CFS,POTS and Fibro on top of Aspergers and have difficulty doing any activity without needing recovery time. The points system for ESA and PIP does not recognise variable conditions. They suggest I apply for Jobseekers. I believe that would be detrimental to my health. I'm a mum and struggling to get by doing that and a little crafting work as it is. I feel like they've shot down my reasons by oversimplifying the qualifiers. Can I raise one arm above my head? Yes, at the moment because my shoulder and ribs haven't subluxed today. Some days the answer is Ow! No way! Can I cope with small unexpected changes? Yes because my child wakes me up at different times. Um..no, I've had eight years to get used to that and some days it still affects me. Change a small thing about my expected plans, or go a different route and my anxiety flares up. My conditions are complex. I don't fit into their tick-boxes but I still genuinely need the support.
Agreed SZ the DWP descriptors are inflexible. I know I was asked on my medical if I could lift my arms above my head, tho no problem there, I never claimed it to be. I think if anything physical it's more to do with poor balance, if I say carry a small crate of beer, or perhaps hi-fi equipment, not heavy in itself I have to walk really carefully so as not to trip and break the item. I think sometimes also it's getting a message across if I have to do it verbally I could probably shout out "FIRE!!!" if there was one, but it's more complex info I get flustered with. I do find myself having to repeat myself to various family members. I know at one time I got cross with an uncle "OH FFS get a hearing aid!!!THat's with someone I know so harder with strangers I wasn't sure if it was me or him. I know the more I have to repeat a more complex message the more flustered I get and the more it stresses me out , and it's harder to understand me when I'm like that
Got the 3 o'clocks worrying about pip and losing my Housing support lady and the builders less than smooth work yesterday., death of my next door neighbour even tho a blessing ( dementia) missing my sister. But we had some nice posts yesterday didn't we? Priorities today shower and getting out though sofa day more likely.