I got diagnosed 2 months ago at 52. I have read "Unmasking Autism" and got myself the "Unmasking Autism Workbook for Autistic Adults". I had to throw the workbook away as it was maming me stressed and depressed. All the exercises assume some knowledge of what child hood was like and how events in my childhood led me to mask. As that was 40-50 years ago, I really have no clue what drove my masking and I struggle to even know what parts of "me" are masking and what might be unmasked me.
While I have been able to let some of "me" surface while walking the dog all alone with no-one watching, does anyone have any tips how to figure out where I might be masking after all these years?