Worried about being 'unattractive'

I had this one ex who a friend of mine used to call unatracribe and joke about why I was with her I got offended and pushed this friend away and resented her an her boyfriend … turns out said friend had feelings for me and you know what she was right anyway the ex or gf at the time as it was wasn’t nice I don’t mean in look ai mean overall as a person she was nasty 

but yeah the moral of that story is friend had feelings for me I liked the friend that way tok but I’d pushed the friend away snd ruined a chance of A possible nice relationship for a toxic one(friend was also in a toxic relationship so In the end it was better that we never gave jt a go becuase it would of been a rebound situation anyway and caused us both hurt)

anyway back on topic of the thread I have felt bad about my appearance for so long that I’ve neglected some of it a *** im doing what I can now but some i cant easily fix but I can get the tatttoos and hair cuts etc and clothes that make me feel better 

Not all women are like that, or all men either and I'v ebeen on the recieving end of a lot of abuse from men.

Some people are just toxic and she sounds like one of them, it dosen't matter how old you are it's horrible to be made to feel that way.

I don't have many friends. She was my everything. 

Yes, she was horrible, but I didn't even pay attention. I let myself be upset about it literally two weeks after she broke up with me

Thank you so much for your comment. And yes, she was a horrible person. Seeing such an overwhelmingly negative reaction from so many people has reassured me it wasn't a problem with me. She also has no disability. She is just that nasty. 

She also said I'm needy and that I 'fish for compliments' a day after I said how much it hurt when someone else said that to me. She saw my reaction and began apologising and claiming it was a 'joke', but the damage was done. She never apologised for comparing my appearance to that of a horse. 

She was not just nasty, she hit me exactly where she knew how much it would hurt me. 

On the last day of our relationship, she broke every single explicit (written and verbal) promise she ever made me and then said 'If you even want to be friends, don't message me until December' and when I reminded her of her promises she said 'Wow this is really crossing a line'

And the worst part of it is, I still love her. I'm never speaking to her ever again, but I still feel that way about her. 

This was honestly the most insecure I ever felt in any relationship ever. 

For months, she would express flirtatious attention one day and then disappear for weeks and hardly text, have road trips with me then ghost me for two weeks and not text whilst flirting with very muscular gym boys on her phone when on the trip with me. 

She had this ability to cause me to by hysterically afraid and she would regularly make it even worse by saying things like the above or 'I loved this but I can't tell you, sworn to secrecy!' or muting herself whenever her family spoke to her when on the call with me and placing the phone face-down. 

I'm 23 and am very sensitive about my appearance. 

She did also get called 'average' by her own mother and to be honest a lot of people said that she is not attractive at all (provoking an angry response from me at the time).

Regardless, she knew what she was doing. She knows how sensitive I am. 

It sound like you're well shot of her, she sounds cruel and like she was doing it on purpose to upset and hurt you.

Lots of women like dimples and find them cute.

It's horrible feeling that you're so unattractive, I've been there so many times, I just about believe that I'm not now I'm in my 60's.

Please don't let this womans toxicity blight your life and sense of worth, I know it's hard though.

I sometimes wonder if people like that aren't projecting thier own feelings about themselves onto other people, maybe she feels she's ugly and unattatractive and has projected it onto you?

Or they try make the man look her they want them too mu ex did this to me and I always looked back on that look as ew 

This sounds familiar. Lots of young women want to make men feel insecure by being the one to dump or have the last laugh. Its superficial what someone else thinks about your appearance, only how you feel in yourself. There are much better women out there to be discovered

I agree with Orangegnome 

The woman is toxic. And you are better off without her. Seems to me she has some deep issues that make her need to vindicate herself by being nasty.

As to Dimples, the late Robert Redford had dimples.  

I know appearance can be a sore issue like for me right now I hate how I look with thick long messy hair and an ugly beard so tommorows plan gets  hair cut dye my hair blonde and gets shave 

im always more confident with short died hair and I feel like every time I shave I feel like I look less old and wrinkled 

and as sad as it sounds I feel like the better i look the more intrest my music performences seem to get 

I also need to make it a priority to shave my arm hair too since I have tattoos in the arm and hand areas now so it only brings attention to how bad the hair looks 

She sounds (in the nicest way possible) like a horrible person, as someone who also went through a relationship with someone constantly belittling the way i looked i empathise with you. one thing i found really helped afterwards was when i would go to brush my teeth in the morning i would give myself a compliment in the mirror. theres someone out there for everyone and someone will adore the way you look

I am going to be honest and say she doesn’t sound like a nice person or like she was nice to you at all. There will be someone  out there who will adore you because of how you look, your personality and how you make them feel. Could you spend some time trying to build up your confidence with friends and with yourself?