Summer depression

Got a long list,Starbucks lovers that’ll tell you im insane 

Builder can be a real nightmare, I've heard so many horror stories from friends, wrong parts being ordered, the wrong size being ordered, extensions just being tacked onto the side of buildings rather than being keyed into the existing building, extensions that are meant to have a roof strong enough to take a roof terrace not being made to take the weight.

Every time I see a neighbour having work done I go and ask them if they'd recomend the contractor and get a card if they do. What really bugs me is when you're a woman they feel free to ignore you and do what they think you ought to have rather than what you've asked for. We had a shower fitted not long before my Dad died and it was a total mess, after my Dad died my Mum was trying to get someone to come and fix it and she was asked by one plumber if he could speak to her husband and when she said she was a widow, if he could speak to her son. He would not deal with a woman and I've met a few like that, so much so that one of my first questions to new builders is, will you work for a female client? My elderly neighbours have had the same problem, so many of them can't seem to get thier heads around the idea that the female partner has had as much financial input as the male. It's a horrible and frequently cruel situation, espesically in my Mums case with her being a new widow. 

Yeah I have my guitar and now I have my Tay Tay 13 temp tattoos(since you can’t get real hand tattoos unless the place is comfortable doing it like they know you etc) becuase I need it to cover up some scaring on my hand from biting during meltodwns 

Hmm this all sounds really hard for you at the moment. Well at least you have e your music to help you and maybe you can play some Mario kart or something if you feel up to it! You do need someone who respect you for being you and being told to shut up can be really demeaning and NTs just expect us to “shake it off”. It’s like they are trying to tell you to not be you and that’s horrible! I hope your music and rehousing goes smoothly for you! I can’t imagine that being an easy process! 

Oh and also the worst is until I get rehoused we have to live together snd sinc ewe NEED to stay friends becuase I won’t let my kids see parents who can’t be friends snd remember the good times I need to be moved so we can both get on with life 

Also thank you it sucks but if I kept trying it would only get worse at least this way I have two paths be alone but happy or mabie one day I’ll meet someone nkt this time someone who understands MY autism and nkt just says you need to change what you cant 

Im fed up with not being allowed to mention Taylor swift or do my Yuri the clown impression without being told to shut up :( 

if another relationship is ever on the cards they have to at least understand my speical interests if they don’t share them 

It’s all about coconut mall and moo moo meadows although Luigi circut is agood and has the best shortcut 

Aww I’m sorry about how things turned out with you and your partner, I hope you are doing ok now though. You have some great choices for music from games there. Mario kart Wii music is all fantastic, my favourite music and racetrack itself from the Wii is Grumble Volcano! Probs my top 10 of all time Mario kart actually! Also like Delfino Pier music and battle stage. New super Mario bros music is awesome too, again I love the Wii one and the volcano area haha. 

Ok so here’s my fave video game music for you 

Mario Kart Wii all of it

all rhe new super Mario bros music

final fantasy 7 those who fight

the Minecraft music

the music in unpacking

Still alive and want you gone from portal

the non quake music

someof this will be hard to listen to for a hit now though as it was shared hobby with my partner and I know I ended things becuse it’s best for me but it still hurts we did have some amazing times in that 15 years but when things need to end I guess you have to try no let the good times cloud yoir mind 

Well I like her songs, especially shake it off and blank space. I remember going to Liverpool one time when she was hosting her concert later on that day, omg there were so many fans with all her merch and everything! She is one of the few singers I actually enjoy. Can’t say I’ve heard of many other songs, they all seem to be older songs playing now

Cruel summer is also the first song on the lover album

i knownsome of you here Dont like Tay Tay but the haters Gunna hate hate hate hate hate lol

while I remember too my team leader last night heard blank space come on an without missing a beat went “what’s this” and seeing my face light up she went and the same time j did “it’s taayyyy taaaayyy” 

i also told a customer who’s never heard here songs to listen to some 

lol I get it, shake it off wish I could do that! 

This summer has been way too hot you could say it’s a cruel summer 

but I’ll just shake it off 

mabie im the problem it’s me 

Just thought I’d add saying I had my appointment with my GP and he sent me a self referral thing for nhs therapy so I have applied and now waiting. I guess I need help with the intrusive thoughts from this creep worker and then of course those bullies. 

Ahh good old Taylor swift! For music I’m actually more into gaming background music, find the animal crossing music super chill but so are some of the Mario kart world free roam tunes, also quite like lofi too. As for singers I can’t really say I’m into any right now. Everyone these days just seem to be these so called reality stars or tik tokkers or whatever and I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again, I’m Gen z and I don’t understand what all that is about. 

Ugh the “builders” are dragging the work out now. So much for two weeks! Been nearly a month now! Had work started on the 4th August and still not done. Now waiting on the little things to be completed but everything has been ordered with the wrong dimensions or something and now have to wait for them to be made to order! I can’t see them being done before I go on holiday. I own my flat. 

Omg you are like exactly the same as me when it comes to summer as well! I find I am either too hot but if I have the fan on I can get some what chilly but if I have so much as a thin blanket on me I sweat like crazy, plus all the fans I have do is just blow hot air and then dry my eyes out! Seriously can’t wait for September, we need autumn so badly if you ask me! 

I think I have finally accepted that I just don't like summer, there will be the odd day where the heat is bearable and there's a breeze and I like it but for the majority of the summer I'm miserable, to quote Mark from Peep Show: 

But seriously, the heat in the UK is just awful the majority of the time, I get sweaty, I get uncomfortable, my clothes feel uncomfortable, it's too bright, it's too difficult to sleep because it's hot but I also don't like the fan blowing on me!

But, I'm telling myself - we've nearly done it, it's September on Monday, the temperature is going to come down, the leaves are going to change colour, we're almost there!

How are things with your builders?

Do you own the flat or rent it from a housing association?

See I hate the summer but what I do is get my self out wirh a bit of music on or make my own music and have cold drinks

So at the moment it’s a lot of Taylor swift and monster energy and water