Does being a good (step) dad,granddad, and great granddad(in their eyes) make up for being an abject failure in so many other ways such things are usually defined? Some people get over childhood & teenage bullying and achieve great things. I lacked the inner strength to do so
A situation not helped,no doubt, by far too may years of poor recognition of needs and things I struggle with. But others do well despite that. I can't genuinely say I feel depressed,beyond a dip in mood that's probably SAD. What I can say is that I feel useless and worthless a lot of the time.