Published on 12, July, 2020
When people talk about emotions, I express my opinion logically, but they respond by saying I'm an exception, that I'm different. I’ve realized that while everyone seems to have something to live for, I don’t. My mother only urges me to work, but I don’t have the money to enjoy life. I wake up just to work, and sleep only to wake up for work again. I don’t love anyone; I feel completely empty..
How can i fix it?
I am going to be autisticly honest.
Ive tried to commit suicide a couple of times but failed, happy i failed.
I sold everything i had and started to travel and worked remotely, seing another perspective of life and other cultures changed everything.
It is weird when you are from Sweden where people stand 15 feet away from you at the bus stop and never says hi or talks, they avoid you and thats Swedes.
I relocated to Hungary and i didnt know anyone and not the language either. But every single person came to knock on my door and welcome me, Ive never had so much food in my life, they all came with things they cooked at home, alcohol etc.
They were basically autistic people, no filters and i literally felt like i was home.
Changed my perspective and i noticed that its just where i am at that sucks and its not for me.
Trust me my family, friends literally everyone tried to stop me and told me i am not going to make it, its dangerous etc etc. Guess what?
They were dead wrong, way safer then Sweden, the people were amazing, the culture, food and the architecture was brilliant! I miss it badly, i am back in Sweden because my wife got kids and they need to grow up before we leave for spain.
Do you need a friend or just someone to rant to?
I am here and let me know if you want a way to direct message.
Life is f-ing hard, but its also f-ing beautiful
I dont want to miss a thing
This is what I want. I moved from Yemen to Turkey because my family knows that Yemen, or any country in the Middle East, doesn’t suit me or my way of thinking. Since I moved to Turkey, I've wanted to live independently, have Turkish friends, a dog, and travel the world to explore history. But I can't. I have nothing. I can't work because it's not legal. I couldn't attend college because my family said no. I spend my days lying in bed and waking up just to please them by helping with business, but I feel like I'm constantly crashing, saying to myself, 'This isn't my world.' So, I’ve decided to take a step and free myself from everything. I've tried to travel many times to start over, but because of my passport, the world has shut its doors on me. But I'm not a harmful person. No one loves me because they feel uncomfortable.. What I'm doing in this world?