Published on 12, July, 2020
Iv decided to do a forum on my wildlife holidays where I can tell you about my holiday rather than just sending pictures
cause iv been on lots of them this year rather than only sending photos. also proper trips il tell you about and add photos to go with it on this post aswell. cause it will be easyer and better for me but is also for holidays cause im going on lots of holidays this year and it deserves its own thread in this sense.
my first holiday I went on this year was Wales. I went to Snowdonia near the national park
we saw a lamma and a pony
with the view we got from the cottage we stayed in was of the sea
Jackdaws perched on the buildings when we watched tv we went for a walk and I got great pictures of the moutains
you could see them on the beach outline at the beach the waves I saw a literally called gray heron fly past
the waves crashed against the rocks and became fully submerged until they broke and forced its way over. my long lens saved my life by getting me up close enough to photograph the waders and I saw Great crested grebes.
back at the cottage herring gulls at Jackdaws
the next day we went to the waterfalls I saw yellow gorse.
the water level was high but not flooded. it was a adventure and the gorse made it look colourful
it was massive then we went down the mountain the next day we went to the sea again and I saw a cormerent. there was lots of bladder wrack which is a type of seaweed.
seaweed are actualy a type of algae. some can surve out the water for a certain period of time. others dont survive as well it depends on the type cause theres different types of seaweed.
this one is normaly mistake for seaweed but is actualy a type of animal instead
in July
im very used to wildlife watching in the uk and while I have been to menorca I havnt wildlife watched there cause I didnt have an interest in Wildlife then so this was my first time wildlife watching in a different country.
I allways have to wear ear defenders when i go to the air port but they had disability asistance. I had to improvise cause the person that supports me that went with me hasnt gone on holiday with me before and didnt know what to say or do with my sensory challanges at the airport. the person that was with me said she thinks il be fine but I knew cause of my autism cant deal with crowds so I said I have autism and I dont like crowds so would it be ok to go where its less busy or quiter and so she took me through. there was a point where we wernt sure if I had to take my ear defenders off at the part where you have to walk through and them see if you got metal on you so I asked the lady there if I could keep them on and she went off to ask the person behind the thing you have to walk through. I was very anxious at this point. it was time to put our items on the coveyerbelt and walk through the metal thing. The person with me for the holiday and me still didnt know so I was panicing inside and i was told to take them off by the person taking me which i was reluctant to do but the plaine lady came over and thumbed up us saying not to take them off and that i can keep them on and we went through. the flight was delayed by an hour. but it was no ones fault cause they had to help somone who couldnt walk onto the plane. so we walked and stopped every 5 minutes so people were joking about that and inpatient at the same time. eventually we got on though at last. I filmed the take off and we went over the bay of biscay on the way to Tenerife
when landing I saw mount tede from above the clouds.
the next day I saw a canarian chiffchaff
and I saw a Spanish sparrow for the first time. they were breeding at the hotel.
but one of my biggest highlights was snorkeling for the very first time
and the dolphins which i got to see for the very first time
and mount tede a active volcano with many species only found on that mountain I saw crystal on a rock
that was the last day. the next day we went on a trip but when it came to packing bags for the trip. I put my bag with the plastic bag on it ontop of my suitcase then gave it to her with the plastic bag on it but took it off and thought that she was going to put the bag in cause it didnt only have my stuff in the bag and as far as I knew the plastic bag was in the boot but at some point in the journey I wondered where the bag was and thought it might be in the boot cause i couldnt see it in the back. we checked the boot and it wasnt there.
my ear defenders got left behind which was problomatic cause the person with me wasnt willing to go back and get the ear defenders and soon we had to go to the air port. I was highly anxious and I found it diffucult getting her to understand the why it is important enough that we do have to go back anf get them we bought some silenceing headphones as an emergancy cause otherwise I wouldnt of been able to get on the plane. we went through disability asisstance. the plane was delayed by a couple of hours and we wernt able to get on until midnight. a teenager had a go in a wheelchair and a little boy was going up and down a slope behind me which i found acted as visual stimulation and made my anxiety worse. it isnt thetre fault its just cause im autistic but thanfuly things did cam down and at 12 o'clock we lined up and got on the plane and came back to the uk by 4 or 5 oclock in the morning.
another thing aswell is that its been very I dont know what the word is not embarassing but awkward around the staff members because im a very quiet person I dont show my emotions too much in front of others but when I think i meed to or be nesacery I allow them to come to the surface and i cam be very exspressive bit i still try to remain as controled as possible so in that way im very reserved
when im in a envirement that im comfortable in or happy in I tend to be more comfortable letting my feellings become more visable either on my face or in my body language but i still stay controled all the same so most of the time im very reserved when it comes to my emotions.
my face and body language can contradict how i really think and feell inside sometimes but not only that I can show no signs of being anxious or stressed or anything whatsoever and as I go about my every day life in the house and act completely normal so on the outside to people like when im with staff and what not and theres no indication to them that im even remotely un happy living here and this has allways been the case for many years that iv been here
this can make it exstremly awkward if say you need to exspress thoughts and feellings or when it comes to situations like this im about to describe Im un certain of how to react with the staff cause my mind is used to being so reserved around them and also It may or may not help if i act reserved but my mind has been coping this way for 10 years and that is a very long time it is normal enough that I automaticaly react this way with them due to being in a place that isnt suitable for me for so long and it has created a very awkward situation
cause now i dont know weather to not act reserved so that they know or act reserved but weather i want to or not my mind automaticaly goes into reserved mode the second I walk out the door every day. im very good at adopting the correct body language amd behaving like myself on the outside while also hideing my emotions from them to the point of behaving fine or even as if happy in the long term just to get through every day
now that iv told the socisl worker im not happy here and that i know the social wirker has told the staff things are very awkward im trying to just sort things out with my social worker and Mum and get to the leaving stage
before i even sqy anything to the staff cause i dont know what there reaction will be to it and they may not be much help and so I dont know how to react around them weather i should let myself habitualy for coping purposes act reserved around them or weather I should just let the fact im not happy living here show or not while im sorting this whole thing out about my social worker im also very worried about the manager asking me why i told the social worker im not happy here next week before i even get to sort everything out with Mum and my Social worker
an update on the athletics thing aswell
either my key worker or me is going to ask the manager about visiting to see whay its like first before paying again before i make any decitions
the journalism thing i dont know how im going to sort that out yet as the manager still doesnt understand why i wanted a flexable course and still under the asumption I could stop going out evem though I wouldnt do that cause I would also want to gonout and practice what iv learned aswell or still go out too but those are the updates I thought I would also add