Published on 12, July, 2020
Iv decided to do a forum on my wildlife holidays where I can tell you about my holiday rather than just sending pictures
cause iv been on lots of them this year rather than only sending photos. also proper trips il tell you about and add photos to go with it on this post aswell. cause it will be easyer and better for me but is also for holidays cause im going on lots of holidays this year and it deserves its own thread in this sense.
my first holiday I went on this year was Wales. I went to Snowdonia near the national park
we saw a lamma and a pony
with the view we got from the cottage we stayed in was of the sea
Jackdaws perched on the buildings when we watched tv we went for a walk and I got great pictures of the moutains
you could see them on the beach outline at the beach the waves I saw a literally called gray heron fly past
the waves crashed against the rocks and became fully submerged until they broke and forced its way over. my long lens saved my life by getting me up close enough to photograph the waders and I saw Great crested grebes.
back at the cottage herring gulls at Jackdaws
the next day we went to the waterfalls I saw yellow gorse.
the water level was high but not flooded. it was a adventure and the gorse made it look colourful
it was massive then we went down the mountain the next day we went to the sea again and I saw a cormerent. there was lots of bladder wrack which is a type of seaweed.
seaweed are actualy a type of algae. some can surve out the water for a certain period of time. others dont survive as well it depends on the type cause theres different types of seaweed.
this one is normaly mistake for seaweed but is actualy a type of animal instead
in July
im very used to wildlife watching in the uk and while I have been to menorca I havnt wildlife watched there cause I didnt have an interest in Wildlife then so this was my first time wildlife watching in a different country.
I allways have to wear ear defenders when i go to the air port but they had disability asistance. I had to improvise cause the person that supports me that went with me hasnt gone on holiday with me before and didnt know what to say or do with my sensory challanges at the airport. the person that was with me said she thinks il be fine but I knew cause of my autism cant deal with crowds so I said I have autism and I dont like crowds so would it be ok to go where its less busy or quiter and so she took me through. there was a point where we wernt sure if I had to take my ear defenders off at the part where you have to walk through and them see if you got metal on you so I asked the lady there if I could keep them on and she went off to ask the person behind the thing you have to walk through. I was very anxious at this point. it was time to put our items on the coveyerbelt and walk through the metal thing. The person with me for the holiday and me still didnt know so I was panicing inside and i was told to take them off by the person taking me which i was reluctant to do but the plaine lady came over and thumbed up us saying not to take them off and that i can keep them on and we went through. the flight was delayed by an hour. but it was no ones fault cause they had to help somone who couldnt walk onto the plane. so we walked and stopped every 5 minutes so people were joking about that and inpatient at the same time. eventually we got on though at last. I filmed the take off and we went over the bay of biscay on the way to Tenerife
when landing I saw mount tede from above the clouds.
the next day I saw a canarian chiffchaff
and I saw a Spanish sparrow for the first time. they were breeding at the hotel.
but one of my biggest highlights was snorkeling for the very first time
and the dolphins which i got to see for the very first time
and mount tede a active volcano with many species only found on that mountain I saw crystal on a rock
that was the last day. the next day we went on a trip but when it came to packing bags for the trip. I put my bag with the plastic bag on it ontop of my suitcase then gave it to her with the plastic bag on it but took it off and thought that she was going to put the bag in cause it didnt only have my stuff in the bag and as far as I knew the plastic bag was in the boot but at some point in the journey I wondered where the bag was and thought it might be in the boot cause i couldnt see it in the back. we checked the boot and it wasnt there.
my ear defenders got left behind which was problomatic cause the person with me wasnt willing to go back and get the ear defenders and soon we had to go to the air port. I was highly anxious and I found it diffucult getting her to understand the why it is important enough that we do have to go back anf get them we bought some silenceing headphones as an emergancy cause otherwise I wouldnt of been able to get on the plane. we went through disability asisstance. the plane was delayed by a couple of hours and we wernt able to get on until midnight. a teenager had a go in a wheelchair and a little boy was going up and down a slope behind me which i found acted as visual stimulation and made my anxiety worse. it isnt thetre fault its just cause im autistic but thanfuly things did cam down and at 12 o'clock we lined up and got on the plane and came back to the uk by 4 or 5 oclock in the morning.
I meant to add on my post about the lady by the way she is was a mental health professional and had the authority to observe and recognise disorders and go and get me diagnosises so it wasnt just any lady that came to see me and diagnosed me around 2013 and 2014 and 2016. the diagnosis in 2016 I wasnt particualrly inpressed with at first and it was a type of mood disorder it has lots of mis conceptions and stigma atached to it and I deal with enough of those cause of my autism and learning disability and everything but doing research on it and learning anout the facts and everything some of it does make sense. i dont fit the whole criteria but I think some or most. you need to at least fit a certain number of it and my Mum and everyone at the seperate meeting for the diagnosis that i didnt know about or attend agreed to it and I personaly think that the thing is i was bullied at college cause i was hit and so contantly felt unsafe like i could get hit all the time even if i wasnt anywhere near him but the bullying wasnt just physical so that part slipped under peoples radar and even during safe guarding it still continued this went on for 3 years and i still didnt feell safe until he and i left. i also didnt have any proper friends and me not having any proper friends made me a target for bullying there so this and then after i left college the trauma in 2013 aswell as having members of family passing away from un natural courses including depression in a short space of time ebery year one after another and living in a place im not happy in also i think that aswell as my autism and learning disability may have contributed to both disgnosises that i recieved around 2013 and 2014 and 2016 and so think that the diagnosis i recoeved in 2016 may have something to do with all these factors and the way my brain has learned to deal with them has contributed to the mood disorder develiping that i recived in 2016
another thing i wanted to add I will be seeing Mum next Monday and im still struggling to get all the reasons that span 2013 all the way up to now all written down for my social worker
I hope that these posts are helping you to get your thoughts in order for them.
Bullying is one of the worst things in the world. A lot of people on this board have suffered through bullying, sadly. I know that I did, but not as badly as you describe.
apologies. i made a comment it made a duplicate by mistake when my comment was sent then all my comments disapeared so it was being awkward. theres multiple factors involved not just one
aswell as that i also need to more directly write what about the way the house works and the factors that make it un suitable the problom is and this is the big thing that prevented me telling her on the spot
while most would be able to say yes im not happy here and then describe the reasons with ease with me i have had to surpress the reasons for so many years so that I could tell someone when the time is right surpressing all the many factors that were there and that were constantly coming up and more and more all the way up to now
was a way of coping as i had no comfort in telling the social workers weather im happy here or not and that it isnt suitable.
telling them was the first step and was challanging enougb as it is. i was then exspected to exsplain why im not happy living here and why it isnt suitable which i didnt exspect
cause i was short on time cause i was going to be going home so then of course being closed up to my social workers and my Mum due to not being able to tell my social worker im not happy where i am and that its unsuitable has meant my mind is now used to keeping them to myself and uses it as a way of coping with living in a place that is un suitable
the trouble is its going to take a long time to become comfortable with my social worker and eventualy open up to her about why its un suitable and this will take me out of my comfort zone
and the thing is when it comes to this kind of thing if im anxiuous enough or been surpressing for long enough i can find myself with almost like a stone in front preventing me from bringing them not just out my mouth to vocalise but also get onto paper this is where i end up silent and not telling anyone or even writing instead even though writing is easyer when i cant exsplain through words if keeping something to yourslef happens for too long and your body uses it and becomes a norm
due to needing to of used it for so long this kind of thing causes a block in writing so that im unable to get it all onto paper.
its the person that i will be showing it to that is causeing the writing block and the block in being able to adress all the factors that its unsuitable and how another place would be better even though i would be able to if i was comfortable and not anxious exspressing these to her in order to adress them to her even though i know they need to be so that i can go elsewhere