Is it okay to feel this way?

Your first sentence is only partially accurate. I've found in a differnt set of circumstances I can be ADVANTAGED by my Autism.

A simple example being the increased sound sensitivity caused me to hear faulty wirnig arcing very quietly in a house that my daughter was viewing... 

You second sentence is full of DESIRE which Bhudda (apparently) said is the cause of all human unhappness. In this case you desire a chaneg to you own basic nature akin to desiring to change your skin colour.

Now there is a man who famously did exactly that, (Michael Jackson) but I'm not sure it made him happy... 

Be careful what you wish for, is a piece of old wisdom that has served me well, when I've managed to remember it.

Your first sentence is only partially accurate. I've found in a differnt set of circumstances I can be ADVANTAGED by my Autism.

A simple example being the increased sound sensitivity caused me to hear faulty wirnig arcing very quietly in a house that my daughter was viewing... 

You second sentence is full of DESIRE which Bhudda (apparently) said is the cause of all human unhappness. In this case you desire a chaneg to you own basic nature akin to desiring to change your skin colour.

Now there is a man who famously did exactly that, (Michael Jackson) but I'm not sure it made him happy... 

Be careful what you wish for, is a piece of old wisdom that has served me well, when I've managed to remember it.