Published on 12, July, 2020
I had what I consider my final session today, it's not her, it's me. It's on me to fix my problems and move on now.
I wish I could have addressed my rejecting of my autism in the past, my repressed sexuality, or my general disappointment in humankind, but alas those subjects were perhaps beyond her charity mandated training. (Mind Swansea)
I just reiterated the same junk and she and I just didn't connect at all. 50 minutes is a small window so I couldn't delve into the stuff that mattered and I said my goodbye over email.
Also I'm tired of talking about myself and the person on the other side of the room not giving a ***. A paying client more than a person. I might as well take a vow of silence and stay in the background.
Please don't try to convince me to try again, I have been pushing my luck with the local services for years and I've just about run out of chances.
Have you tried life coaching? There is such a thing for neurodivergent people. At a cost though, I couldn't afford it. I have had mixed results with counselling myself, I am currently on the list again for counselling as I just need someone to talk to. The NHS just want to pill me up. I was diagnosed at 37 and I am 40 now and spent my whole life reaching out to the council even had some kind of a social worker at some time if that is actually who she was and it was useless
Don't you have to have goals and ambitions to do life coaching? I can just see me and a life coach, 'what would you like to do?', 'I dont' know, I wouldn't know an ambition if it came up and smacked me in the face'.
I admit to being biased against life coaching as my ex husband trained in it soon after we split up, and the thought of paying him to sit there like an over enthusiastic puppy hassling me to do stuff, fries my brian. He was also very against counselling and therapy as it took to long and he believed that people can be reprogrammed with the same ease as a computer.