Published on 12, July, 2020
I had what I consider my final session today, it's not her, it's me. It's on me to fix my problems and move on now.
I wish I could have addressed my rejecting of my autism in the past, my repressed sexuality, or my general disappointment in humankind, but alas those subjects were perhaps beyond her charity mandated training. (Mind Swansea)
I just reiterated the same junk and she and I just didn't connect at all. 50 minutes is a small window so I couldn't delve into the stuff that mattered and I said my goodbye over email.
Also I'm tired of talking about myself and the person on the other side of the room not giving a ***. A paying client more than a person. I might as well take a vow of silence and stay in the background.
Please don't try to convince me to try again, I have been pushing my luck with the local services for years and I've just about run out of chances.
I'm thinking aloud but I feel healthcare is undergoing a paradigm shift from being cared for to caring for ourselves as people find alternative treatments more effective.
Good point I find a mix of medication and alternative therapy works for me. I use B6 vitamins for alternative therapy they work for me. I tried CBD before and it just made me paranoid and anxious dunno why it affected me like that when it’s not supposed to be psychoactive or anything like that. There’s some evidence that cannabis can have the opposite effect in autistic people than it has with neurotypical folks. B6 is great though for me.