Published on 12, July, 2020
I’m very confused about who I am and want to know if any Autistic people relate to any of my traits/behaviours.
I’m a 35 year old woman, in a happy long term relationship, good job and have a large social circle and enjoy social events. However I’ve always felt like I’m “not being myself” and always obsessed over personality type quizzes to try and find out who I am, always searched for the solution, yet never found it. More recently I’ve thought maybe something bad happened in my past that I don’t know about, and that is why I didn’t feel right and felt different - however nothing proves this point.
I’ve recently become fascinated in researching into late diagnosis of autism in women. I possess many traits of autism and masking, however I don’t (that I know of) have any problems with eye contact or interacting with people - this makes me question whether I am or not. To save going into too much detail I’ve bulleted below some of my current and past traits and behaviours. Some of these I’ve always just thought are weird or was just something I do so I’d love to hear if anybody else has had similar experiences.
The above are just a select through that have a personal impact on me, however there are more traits that are fitting. I’d be grateful to learn of others experiences.
I daydream a lot too! Either with myself and some fictional characters, or just completely fictional characters.
Ohh, I do that too, I thought it was because I was an only child and where I lived wasn't close to where my friends lived. People confuse daydreaming about fictional characters with imaginary friends, the fictional people i play with exist soley in my mind and don't "come to tea" as it were. I couldn't go to sleep at night without my fictional friends,