Published on 12, July, 2020
My therapist asked me whether I know any other autistic people today and I realised that I don't. Admittedly I've been somewhat isolated due to my mental health, but, I'm working on that and I'm working on getting back out there.
My fear is that I'm too autistic for neurotypical people yet too normal for autistic people due to my high masking skills.
Are there any pros to trying to socialise and get to know more autistic people? Any cons?
Generally I don't do a lot of socialising, my anxiety disorder tends to put a stop to it if the idea enters my head.
Really all my contact with people is with my family.
I've never had any friends. Each time I tried to talk to anybody at school I was filled with crippling anxiety. Maybe one day it will be a different story.
I live in hope.
I completely get that as I'm the same with my anxiety but I really want it to change.
I've had friends but it usually always ends and I wind up hurting which has dented my trust in humans on the whole.