Do you often feel misunderstood like no one rarely knows the true version of yourself? Bit of a backdrop
- Without trying to be egotistical I have quite a high IQ above 120 anyway the reason I say this is because it’s relevant in the fact that up until 26/27 years old I finished school with very poor grades, only worked part time up until that age, never had a romantic partner or moved out at that age some might say I have been quite an underachiever.
- 27-31 my life has been like a U-turn full time job with numerous promotions, have been in a long term relationship and we have moved in together.
Albeit all these positives my life has seemed extremely challenging I seem to get a bout of burnout/overwhelm every 6-8months usually 2 days of rest and I’m back to normal but sometimes it takes a toll for 1-2 weeks like the current one I’m experiencing.
After years of research I finally plucked up the courage to visit a GP for an ADHD/Autism appointment I explained my case and thought it was more likely ADHD at that point. Anyway I got sent an autism referral almost immediately but still haven’t heard anything back in regards to ADHD after 7 months.
When I finally broached the subject with my “old school” parents I got a response of “you’re not ADHD you used to be a lovely little boy, stop reading all that off the internet” So I’ve just continued on the research but I just haven’t mentioned it to them again although my dad and my older brother also prefer their own company neither have friends outside of work my brother is mid 30’s and has never had a partner, still lives in our family home and never had much of a live outside of work I always wonder if he struggles with the noise sensitivities etc I do.
There’s a lot of subtleties I get told which also link up after the extensive research I’ve done but sometimes I think is this just me looking too much into stuff.
- Visited home this week after not seeing my family for months (they’ve definitely been missed) but my mum mentioned all I do is say “yes, no or good, okay” to her questions I’m not very talkative. I didn’t even notice I was doing it until she said is this because I’m just comfortable in her company and can answer normally instead of over explaining every little detail.
My partner always says it’s a bit odd as I only communicate with my family every few weeks via text when she communicates with hers everyday on the phone.
Anyway my partner also thinks I relate to ADHD but not autism I didn’t at first but I was naive and thought autism looked a certain type of way not the broad spectrum that it is. What I’m trying to get to is the 2 people closest to me don’t think I am. I’m on a waiting list not knowing but feeling different and am struggling occasionally has anyone had a similar experience ?